Monday, March 31, 2008
Ahh. Today was a cloudy day I guess. Where hope still shines through.
Ok. So first thing we had today was PE. Bleh. I'm still very lousy at basketball. And I have no motivation to jump whatsoever just trying 3 pointers blindly, zzz. I think my spectacles are screwing stuff up. Either I wear contacts from now on, or go uh, well fit a nose rest I guess. My thigh muscle still keeps locking (I don't know why, it just started from yesterday) and it's getting annoying. Then my calf muscle is numbing again. On the same leg. How to run?! *sobs*
Then maths, boring. *skip*
History... Uhh... Ok I didn't expect a good score for this test. Since I only named one factor, lol. Then in the end I got 13/ 15, highest in class tied with Yuet Choong and Kiawei. Then I read the comments on the paper, which said "You could have added in other factors and explain briefly on them". I was like, zomg GNUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU. Then now me and Kiawei fighting against Yuet Choong for top position, since his group project got 32.5 and ours 31 (but ours was seriously better, hmm T_T) But nvmnvm, I shall try to beat him in the next test. Aiyah. No matter where you go, there'll be this really imba person that gives you an inferiority complex. Bleh.
SS. Chinese. English. Boring. *skip*
Which leaves us with the sc quiz team training today!
Was on DNA, but uhh super complicated even the imba Chew and Mattie got lost 0.o Anyway, I've got pictures of nathanael sleeping. So cool x) and uh, because the one teaching us was a RJ graduate of class 2004 (now taking his 3rd year in medicine studies) there were alot of funny jokes. Like:
Teacher: You know by end of sec 3 right, you all should already finish studying A level stuff.
Us: 0.o
Teacher: Like me lah.
Us: 0.o!!
Teacher: What, really. So when you go JC ah, you get very bored then do very weird stuff. Like last time, I wrote on a piece of paper "Look up on the ceiling, there's something there" during a lecture then ask people to pass around. Then watch them look at the ceiling.
Us: 0.o!!!
Teacher: Yeah. And then for the whole of your JC life, you can slack like me, and watch other people and laugh at how stupid they are, harharhar.
x)
Another one:
Teacher: What is the closest star to Earth excluding the sun?
Everyone: Promixa centauri.
Me: Starhub.
**************
Teacher: You know, when you go JC, naturally you want to impress girls right. Then last time we used to do stuff like make a paper rose, then after that use a flint and then create a spark, then *piff* out comes a real rose.
Us: Huh. How to do one.
Teacher: Oh. You take a real rose, then hide it under a paper rose. Then after that on the paper, put a special chemical that will become very bright and disintegrate after exposure to fire. It's called Nitrocellulite, a-
Me: Huh?! Nitroglycerine?!
Teacher: Wrong Nitro. That impress no one. It blows up in your face.
xD
Haha. Ok. Enough of lame jokes. Whee x)
5:07 AM
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Sunday, March 30, 2008
The world is turning upside down!!!!!!!!!!
Nicolette uses the word n00b.
Ying is becoming super horny. 0.o
AND WORSE OF ALL, RICHARD NG ASKED ME TO USE A NEW VULGARITY!!! 0.o!!!
apart from the surprise that benn chua cooks too, hmm.
Spoony bards -_- (richard's new vulgarity)
Lol.
8:29 AM
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Lalalalalalala. YAY!
I finished my chinese homework!! *touched*
x) haha. Ok. Uh. Shit I hope no 2.4 tmr. I'll die.
Stupid Cal. Nvr post again. Zzz.
Oh well. School again. WHY!!!!
Sobs. Then my com and phone are screwed. Bleh.
><
The randomosities of life!!
7:44 AM
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Nothing much today, so no actual post.
Bleh. CAN SOMEONE TAG PLEASE. THANKS. T_T
lol. K nitez
12:09 AM
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Friday, March 28, 2008
Bah. Blogging now.
Today was ok I guess. Really expected a grilling for all my undone e-learning homework. Then uh, not so bad lah. I managed to chiong finish before deadline (: yay! Then after school Cal, Benn and Nana went to S-11 *ahem* and Benn damn mean nvr treat me. Lol. Nvm. x)
Then science club quiz team training... wth physics was so mind boggling that uh, i think my cerebellum just fused. Seriously. Who knew that newton's 2nd law wasn't F = MA, but F= m(delta[v]/delta[t]) + v (delta[m]/delta[t])?!!! Brain fused. Lol. >< Too cheem.
Then uh, started playing hockey in like, 4 months? Wrist strength is lower now, glasses still fly off like, wheeeeeeeee. -.0 and yep, I seemed to have increased in speed (fortunately) but my calf muscle is acting weird. It seems very tension these days. Lol. Cal went for his first track training today, yay :D Ahhh so random.
So uh, I'm hooked on the song!
Some things in life are really badThey can make you really madOther things just make you swear and curse.When you're chewing life's gristleDon't grumbleGive a whistleAnd this'll help things turn out for the best.And...Always look on the bright side of life...Always look on the light side of life...x)
8:28 AM
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Thursday, March 27, 2008
Bleh. Sorry for not posting yesterday. Uh. Well. Didn't have time x)
Anyway, yesterday was ok I guess. Slept till 11.30 (HAHA) and then rushed to interclass soccer. Made it just in time for the match against 3M. Continued off from half time, with only 5 people... other people didn't come, like wth. 5 against 7. So cool. Lost 4 - 0 in the end. After 2 matches the goal diff was negative 6, might as well have been two walkovers -.- lol.
Since our next match was at, uh, 3.30 me, yuet choong and bryson went to com lab. We went to do elearning, and I read abit of FMA when I had the time. Lol. Somehow I think FMA is really a good comic. It combines fact and fiction and really speaks an undeniable truth about humanity. Here's a quote that seems startling but quite true:
"It is ironic that people of the science, who oppose God are the ones who are closest to reaching him."
Yeah. FMA is pretty much atheistic. Haha.
So anyway, the next match was against 3L, Gifford(!)'s class. Lol. Uh. We played quite well I guess... I scored a goal with a pro Chooey assist x). It was the random hockey tactic again... two people were trying to get the ball from chooey then the goalkeeper rushed out at him. He slid and passed me the ball and then I scored lor. Nothing to be proud of. >< unlike Cal who suans me with his 5 goals in 3 matches. Bleh. Then match stopped at halftime due to weather again -.- man why can't it stop. Lol.
Then we were chit-chatting until the rain stopped, and then Delwyn pulled out tennis rackets :D so we played. Uh. I'm getting out of practice! Either that or I'm too used to a greater weight (hockey stick, tsk) so therefore I keep missing the centre of the racket. Yay. x) Mattie was imba and uh. Delwyn too! I keep volleying then fly out. Zomg. What's this!!! ><
Yeah that pretty much ended my day yesterday. Fell asleep at 10. Whatthecrap. *doink*
Today: E-LEARNING CHIONG DAY!
Lol. Anyway. Nothing interesting. About it. Seriously. Unless you're talking about longitudinal and transverse waves and solar panel equations. >< I hate physics as much as maths now. Is that redundant. x)
My mom thinks of getting a maid. I don't like it. I just feel that we shouldn't ask people to do something like helping us do dirty work just to earn money. It's... unethical! Ugh. Actually I don't mind doing the stuff myself. Bleh. I don't want a maid. So unethical, unethical, unethical. ><
Yep. I hope I finish my work by tonight though! (:
12:18 AM
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Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Hmm. Today was well... A day of mixed feelings I guess.
Woke up damn enthu. Then fetched lao tee to school too. Collected my NRIC, and then went to play soccer.
Now that I think about it, why the hell did I spend 2 whole hours playing soccer. Especially playing keep at all. I think Harold Au's shot and Cal's close shot made me completely off balance. Both my wrists and hands are still freaking numb. >< Then after that, my legs were freaking numb too! Gratz. Bleh. I should definitely check out my blood viscosity. It's flowing too slow.
Then our first match against 3T, the potential champs. I'm sure. Manfred was like, oei give chance hor. That was dumb. And gratz, of course I played noobly, not to mention with the added effect of numbed limbs, thrown off balance, reduced stamina and glasses flying to oblivion. In the end, we lost 2 - 0, despite 3T not even breaking a sweat (ok, maybe they did). I was playing too rushed since I was anxious for win. But didn't even get the kill feeling, which probably resulted in 100% carelessness and 0% efficiency. I feel great. Lol.
Then uh. The match against 3M, cal's class. I really dunno what to say. It was immediately after our match against 3T (I seriously think that's screwed up, since we were damn tired) and then we played. I tried to improve by harassing, and uh, yay, got a ball from Cal while he tried to dribble. Pity I never tried... then got tackled by Alvin I think. Being suanned again and again. Haiz. Then, it had to start raining. Cal's probably going to flame me for this, but I can't help thinking that the main reason we went down 2 - 0 during half time is because of the rain. See. My team mainly consists of people wearing glasses, while Cal's team only had uh, two? The rain was super heavy, and our glasses kept fogging and wetting, even Shaun Choo said he couldn't see. On normal instances, 4 on 2 would be a piece of cake wouldn't it. We couldn't even get past the first player because we couldn't see. What the hell. Then they stopped the match at half time, and therefore we have to continue the NEXT half of the match with 2 goals down. Sigh. Life damn tough.
Nvm. I got damn emo, so decided to play randomly in the rain. Damn funny. Then uh, Benn chua was like bathing in the huge puddle of water and splashing about. Then we had this huge water war x) which was incredibly childish but, hey, you can't exactly do that to girls can you. Enjoyed splashing at others, but uh, didn't enjoy getting dragged to the watery part and dunked in. Lol. x) haha nvm. Was quite fun after all.
Then went to the hockey finals... Uh. What can I say. Good job? Lost 4 - 3. I really don't know about my hockey skills now. One handed playing... that's like, something the coach won't allow. That's why I don't like hockey now. Bleh. Join tennis or squash. Tennis or squash. Bleh. Nvm. Maybe I'll stick to hockey and see if I can do anything about it. B div 09... will be looking forward to it.
So. Should I post pics? Nah. I'm not so bad. I'm so good that I won't post about Cal's quote that showed his interest about someone. x)
K. Cya! (:
7:16 AM
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Monday, March 24, 2008
OH CRAP. I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT SHAUN CHOOEY'S AMAZING QUOTE!!
Well we were walking towards bishan library, after soccer when this happened...
Chooey: Tomorrow we'll reveal our final trump card!
Me: Huh? We do have one?
Chooey: [looks determined] ... A taller Me.
xD
9:13 AM
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Absolute suan-age from cal.
Quote: "Thank you all the guys [and gals] for wishing me good luck!"
Like wth. Terrible la. Lol.
Returns to *emo* inferiority complex. Sigh.
8:50 AM
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Ok. Today was relatively interesting! x)
First, of course, we had the T&F! Interhouse competition, where this year buckley is determined not to get last (hmph.) x)
So yeah, I reached there at 7.30, which is supposed to be late, but then people were still walking in at 8am -.0 lol. So yeah, the first event was 100m finals. Stupid Cal. Suan everybody. Go suan haozhi by beating him la. Suan luh. x) I actually heard some guy in buckley saying... hey isn't that the ponner from rugby. How come so fast can beat tracker. Lol. That's damn funny. Heheh.
Then uh, main highlights: 4 x 100... Missed the F#@$(&#($&@(!(*&$#@ing! school record by 0.06 seconds. Whee. And last year we missed by 0.6, so next year we miss by 0.006... lol. Aiyah. Cal thinks its his passing that screwed up, but I think it's more of Soon Hong. He didn't seem as fast as last year... maybe uh, not on form? dunno. But anyway, gratz it was a gold for the event. As expected heheh :D
4 x 400, was uh, quite well done also. Mattie after race very emo... but he did quite well, so it's ok la. We got 2nd for that, and GL almost catch up with syafiq (ugh!) but yeah, I think everyone did well heheh (: so no worries guys! Did a cube pb while watching them (yes, it was that boring) of 58 seconds. Not tyco cube, but just uh, tyco spotting. Haha. Usually my spotting wastes 10 seconds + Lol. Yeah, and so, Cal got 2 silvers and 1 gold (suan luh), which is quite commendable seeing that he never go CCA one. Talk about giving others an inferiority complex. Lol.
So. Buckley came in second, which was quite good. Yeah we're onto a good year, GO BUCKLEY. MAKE THEM GREEN WITH ENVY. (My lame-ness is just the best, thankyou x)
After T&F we played soccer. Ok. Having eaten lunch at Yoshi before playing I screwed up. Then again our playing was all screwed up. I don't have the kill instinct. Yet. And my bloody glasses keep dropping. Fantastic. Should I like, wear contacts. Lol. Nvm. DIE. Tmr must win at least one match. Keep it burning. Even if I have to do it alone, although I doubt it (:
Then, [stupid] Fei [/stupid] and Shaun CHOOEY somehow dragged me to go bishan library to eat with them. The condition: He must let me take cute pictures of him! (Much to the Cal's jealousy). *Note* I am officially declaring that this is by no means an act of homosexuality or pedophilic purposes. Thank you. So. Then we went to bishan library, and then Fei and Shaun choo were taking their lunch. So I went up to get a book. Calvin and Hobbes (HEHEHEH x) yeah then I was so absorbed in the book that I didn't freaking realize how many freaking NY girls were there around. Then I was taking the lift down alone, and at the third story an entire troop of them came in. Wth. And I was like, standing in a corner, trying to read while blocking out the usual screams and chatter in uh, enclosed area. Torture box. Zzz. So yeah, then after that went over to Fei and Shaun ChOOEY. Then apparently Chooey said he couldn't finish his lunch, so yeah, I koped some (note: he didn't mind, don't complain I'm mean and greedy). Yeah.
After lunch, Fei wanted to go bubble tea. Then somehow, he lead us one big round around the library (thanks fei -.-) and then went to some substandard bubble tea shop. I nearly choked on my random flavored drink. Lol. And can you believe it, after they were done, fei started taking the pearls and then use them as bullets. Then he hit Chooey all over the face. Then I got damn pissed with Fei and then three of us engaged in some bubble tea war -.0 that I think is horribly guai lan and childish now. Oh well. The essence of a single sex school. x)
So yeah, that pretty much ended my day. Cal, if you're looking for pics, nope, Chooey made me swear not to post them. Lol. Maybe I should post a pic of you... Heheh. No la I'm not so mean. Ok maybe I am. Lol. Nvm.
Tmr! Ready to win, not to lose. Hopefully the rest thinks so too. (:
Ahh.
7:10 AM
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Sunday, March 23, 2008
Erpz. Feeling sad as usual.
I think I shall take a leaf out of daron's book and create a separate, solo blog for emo-ness.
Yay. Done.
I think part of my emo-ness is probably due to the people I have befriended.
Everyone, every single one of them is better than me. Therefore I have developed an inferiority complex.
Or maybe, I'm really inferior. I dunno what to think. *doink*
May sleep put me out of my misery once again.
5:36 AM
what hurts the most
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Sigh. Today has been a really bad day I guess.
Phone confiscation. Internet timer. Damn.
Good News: Got past the internet controller by hacking. Feel a bit guilty though. Desperate measures.
Anyway, I dunno, but these days I find reaction time training very fun, thanks to the inspiration from the manga "the prince of tennis". Although there's quite alot of fiction there, I think the twist serve is possible. Heheh. Have done a version of the "triple counter hakugei" before... but of course, the spin is not that great. I'm sure. How would you hit a ball that when lands go backwards? That spin is crazy, seriously. Shit. I really regret quitting tennis when i was young now. GNUUUUUU.
But now I'm training my reaction timing. Throw an odd shaped ball against a wall and see how fast you can catch it! (more likely how many times, heheh.) Still doing quite poorly, nvm, jiayou! Trying to reach 1/120 seconds. x) nvm. Cal suans me. RAWR.
Interesting convo on msn with leeni and cal...
<
> says:
you got see the reply to free hugs
<> says:
your friend rachel was like : "oops! accident."
'[D]ewin When we're older you'll understand, what I meant when I said no says:
LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
// calvin (: we've got that you hang up, no you hang up kinda love. says:
NO
(obviously in self denial. Heheh)
And then we came up with this uber cool slogan,
CALS AND GALS!
Haha! And WZY was super funny. We were trying to get him to do the slogan, and he said, how to change PM?! x)
Okok enough random post. Byeeeeeee!
5:39 AM
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Hey, it's 12! That means it's.... uhhh... 22nd march...
Happy Birthday to Deb and Chew! x)
To Hongen: Happy birthday! Thanks for being such a... uhh... Imba, genius, helpful, friend all these years!! :D yay! Hopefully you can be more confident and take up more leadership positions! Tooooooo imba. Rawr.
To Deb: Happy birthday! Thanks for being a kind and caring friend who puts up with my utter lame-ness, heheh x). And yeah, hopefully you too could have more faith in your capabilities! Good luck for all the FAM thingey and in all else that you do! (:
Ahhh. Ok. Actually had a lot more to write but decided to cut them since both of their personalities are very similar, heheh x)
Uh. Ok. Today yesterday was quite, uh, fun? Dunno. JY has been spamming me x) and then at night I went popular to read. Read Species II... which was well... abit creepy. It seems that people create stories these days for the violence and not the logic. Which is really, really, really! Sad. Bleh. Haha. Alien genetics. Creeepy.
I officially announce that I'm very, uh. Unproductive. Yeah I can already hear Deb suanning -.0 lol. Haven't even finished my bio worksheet. Erpz. And my parents are screaming because of that... zzz. I think my parents are even more childish than me. But then again, who am I to judge? Bleh.
Still damn emo. Looks like it's staying for awhile.
12:00 AM
what hurts the most
Friday, March 21, 2008
Hmm I'm going out soon. Quick post, unlike cal, who thinks its a quickie x)
Uhh. Well. I did exercise today... lol. Was running uphill for uhh 600m and downhill abt 300m, total distance 5km. My fitness is pathetic. RAWR. I haven't run 2km heart pain. 0_o damn. Is that another reason to emo...
Oh yeah. And apparently my blood pulse isn't normal. But pressure seems to be fine. My blood flow is abit slow. Maybe that explains why my face is freaking red. But slow blood flow and consistent pressure would mean that my blood is congealed... which is creepy. Nvm. Forget it. *EMO*
Ahh. I better go prepare my two uh... birthday wishes now? Two good friends of mine have their birthday tmr. Heheh x)
KK. Bye!!!
2:47 AM
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Thursday, March 20, 2008
Bah.. A last minuter post.
Still feeling emo. Dunno when will this feeling subside.
Too much pressure. Too little time.
Screw this.
8:20 AM
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Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Ok. I really feel damn emo today too. It just seems like nothing goes right.
Then again, I'll post quotes first.
1st quote of the day:
Wenqi: What do teachers do on staff training day?
Cal: Uhh...
Wenqi: They all go gym issit?
2nd quote:
Me: Nana I think you're the only person who drinks that drink with a straw. Why ah.
Nana: Because I don't want to sprain my neck.
3rd quote:
*Uses hockey stick*
Cal: If you don't give me the stick I'll take the gonads.
Ok. Other than those, I'm freaking emo. I think I'll just sleep over it. Maybe permanently. I dunno. Screw this.
And I just realized you're not helping either. Thanks alot.
7:40 AM
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Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Sigh. Today whole day feeling really sad. Dunno why.
Felt so sad that I actually slept in class again. And really, I dunno why. I just feel like closing the door again.
Bleh. The only memorable thing today was probably playing soccer. Which I did okay. Just okay. Meaning very noob. Thanks. I originally wanted to post some pics but decided against it. Everything just seems wasteful somehow. Sigh.
Then on the bus back me, Yudder and Fei were talking about how uh, lucky Cal is. Seriously. Cal is starting to give me an inferiority complex. Why. Zomg. Clement Zheng and Harold Au were wrong... Cal just proved them wrong, didn't he. Then we were talking abt how Cal shouldn't enter girl schools or wear uh, full body armor in case. Cal seriously, don't think your life sucks just because your results are bad. Your results can be ace if you like, spend less time on other stuff. You have everything already, just that you don't even try to do stuff. That's why you think your life sucks. Ever heard of this: It's easier to make a person from stupid to smart than ugly to beautiful? Yeah ok. Life sucks. Period.
*EMO alert*
I keep thinking that there is someone out there, sketching my fate as a side character of a story. How would one fight something that is orchestrated so intricately, trying to escape but always running into its trap? The fish dreams of walking, but is forever trapped in its watery grave. The snake dreams of flying, but it is forever doomed to crawl on its belly. Likewise, am I forever bound by this scripted destiny. Put your pencil down and erase my existence. The very memories of you are almost monochrome to me. Put me out of my Misery. Thanks.
*End EMO alert*
I feel terrible. Off to sleep. Bye.
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know
I know
Your love is just a lie.
-Your love is just a lie (Simple Plan)
5:52 PM
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I really dunno what to say, but the world is turning upside down.
Not in quiz team. Just because astro isn't a freaking subject in NSC. What the.
Chance to prove myself at something, gone like this. I'm really damn emo tonight. I think uh, well, maybe nothing worse could happen next but an injury. And maybe that'll happen soon. Sigh.
If I can't blame the world, I can only blame myself? If I can't trust the world, and I can't trust myself either, who can I trust. This really sucks. Time to smash my beliefs.
7:38 AM
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Monday, March 17, 2008
Lol this is just a random post.
Zzz. Charis has officially decided to call me dronkydewberry. Wth. Somehow it evolved from Dewin to Dewin (pronounced Dey-win. Sounds french. Zzz) then Dewberry (wth??! A biscuit -.0) and then dronkydewberry. Wth. Ok ok lol.
Then Ernest (alan's bro) came up with this cool pick up line.
A: I have two words for you: I love you.
B: That's three words!
A: No, I and you are one.
Aww so sweet. Rofl x)
And I sense many people chionging work... Cal especially x)
Oh yeah, not to forget RENJIE. Gratz to REMJUI x) on being the YOUNGEST debater to get in for the WSDC thingey. Shall avoid picking an argument with you now. No wonder I could never win. Zomg. BEARRRRRRRRRRR =O
kk. *randomness ends with the post*
8:08 AM
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Bleah. First day of school. Was resolving to be a better person, but obviously phailed.
Woke up late, fortunately reached school on time though. Then we had PE. Basketball. Uh. I dunno what to say... I scored thrice? Bleh. Kiawei says I'm damn dumb. I should have stepped out abit so that they would be 3 pointers. Ok I think so too. Lol. I can't score up close for nuts. Zzz. Far throw is much simpler for me >< Roys was like, MVP since he scored 6 - 7 plus. Lol. Argh. Feel damn noob. But then again I don't feel confident about basketball anyway. Rawr.
Then maths. Took out my FILED maths file *feels proud* x) and then well, finally got to work. Inspired by Deb since she actually does work even though she feels it's boring. Lolololol. Uh, next was history (although it was meant to be SS). I dunno. Eric Koh was saying about the history test which he would return the next lesson, and from the way he said it it sounded like the whole class sure fail. Lol. Then he said I was the only one that used scientific theories as an example. Is he like suanning me. I think I'm gonna fail. Always screw up the first history test of the year, damn.
Then during recess I was trying to do the F2L I made. Turns out it's exactly the same as Cal's, wth. Then learnt a nifty trick that I found quite useful (: although Cal just suans me like never before. Zzz.
SS was uhm, ok la. Dun really know. Then Chinese. Zomg. I dunno, but I'm screwing up my chinese big time. I think I'm currently at a low 3.2 or 2.8 >< which is terribly, horribly screwed up. WHY!!! Even if I try hard for Chinese I can never compare to some people. Now I see why I hate Chinese so much. Bleh. Then I feel terribly uh, sorry for sleeping in Chinese class? I kinda pissed the teacher off. Fell asleep twice. I partially finished my work and then fell asleep, but she was abit pissed. Then as usual, the whole class makes a mountain out of a molehill. Don't really matter. It's natural in a boys school anyway. At least for my class. Sighhhh. I kept feeling like my head was throbbing. Something I forgot? Hmm. Wonder what.
Then uh, OK. I'm screwing up for English too, did I mention. Low 3.2... What's with me and my languages? I'm glad I didn't take lit now. Is it just me or what. Am I doing too much or too little consideration in my answers? The teacher wrote extrapolation, but does that mean I should think less? Zzz. I'm confused. Nvm. Will do better this term, by uh. Studying harder preferably x)
Then went to train with Cal for sprinting. Got a Leeni to tag along. Apparently Leeni twisted his hip (GAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH) and uh, he walk abit funny. Nvm he will get well in time for T&F finals! Yay x) Uh. Then Cal ask me to race with him 100m. Ask me to go 80m mark. Suan luh. I beat him by uh, 5 m at most I think. Which means I'm damn slow. Sobs. Do the maths... Then I ran 400m also. Leeni says that I'm holding back too much of my power. Cal thinks I can do 1.10 (Cal always bullshits. Lol) and uh, yeah I got an average timing of 1.25 UBER SLOW THANKS. I did 400 4 times I think. Lol. Leeni thinks that my first 200 I'm slacking... because my last 200 is alot faster than my first 200! LOL. Maybe. But I think I'm running abit too controlled also. Very scared will die out at the end. x)
Then uhm. I guess that's it for today! Bleh. Hopefully I'll have a better tmr x)
Auspicium Melioris Aevi xD
They say that teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone will bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone but not me
-Teenagers (My Chemical Romance)
Remember that violence is never the answer...
4:21 AM
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Sunday, March 16, 2008
Ahhh. Sunday evening. Bleh.
(I decided to post the time correctly for once. lol)
Homework is all done, except for Chinese project which is due in week 5 I guess. *Phew!*
Reflections for holidays:
What I've done:
-I have made better friends.
-I have emo-ed alot because of random st00f
-I have improved alot in my Astro
-I have made my midnight calls go past 3 am. Zzz. x)
-I have finished my work
-I have gotten a high score of 114 for bowling (thankyou i'm noob)
-I have tried to convince Charis that my cat (or cater) is hawt, but she thinks she's hotter. Bleh.
-I have cracked lame jokes x)
-I have tried to create a new F2L method. Very slow though. Might as well do LBL
-I have been more socialite than mugger. *feels proud* x)
And of course, I had fun! Talking to everyone also, of course x)
What I haven't done:
-Revise for anything
-Study and improve on maths or chinese
-Chinese project, RE project, etc. *Sobs*
-Told her how I felt T_T
-Finish my library books
-Watch a movie that I liked
-Be a better classmate
-Gone for training -.0
-Everything else that I am supposed to do but have not. x)
Sigh. I guess I can say this holiday was pretty well spent.
I really don't know what to say. I didn't sleep the entire last night, coz I couldn't freaking FALL asleep. If only I could... if only every single thought I had laid to rest. I dunno. I just feel so sad about what you talked to me last night. Hmm. Cold and guilty. Does that say something, really ><
Bleh. I'm posting so much more than Cal, yet I'm getting less hits. Wth. NOOOO. RAWR. Lol.
And I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a f**k about you
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you
Anymore, Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to try
(Yeah)
So this is goodbye
-Makes me wonder (Maroon 5)
7:24 PM
what hurts the most
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Hey. It's a saturday. That means holidays are about to be over.
GNUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.
Sigh. It's kinda like hell now.
Facing another phase of life in which I am placed under pressure again. It seems like I still have to constantly change and adapt. Nothing's becoming easier. As life becomes more challenging, we have to move on. Looking back won't help. Thinking will. As I reflect on my life a few years later, what will I think of myself now? Will I be proud? Will I be ashamed? What would I have done differently? To grasp at maturity while knowing one cannot be fully mature, and to be wise knowing that one cannot be truly wise.
I do not feel proud of myself now. Perhaps one day I will. Perhaps I never will. But to walk down the path of least regrets is the toughest thing to do, and I'll look for that path whatever it takes. Without regrets.
Don't go Canada, please. I don't want to lose another close friend. Sigh. But I guess there are times when our paths cross and separate, and life has to go on. It's a cold road ahead. If you really migrate, I hope you'll be happy with your new life. Just don't forget us back at SG. We'll always welcome you back anytime ;)
And it's crunch time.
Take a chance
Make a change
Whatever comes
I'll hope you'll be there for me
As I will for you
7:53 AM
what hurts the most
Friday, March 14, 2008
Yeah! Today was fun! :D
Ok. Bleh. Morning: I totally overslept and forgot to go RJ for training. Eeks. Sorry! Then Lao Tee called me and he was GOING. Yay! So we rendezvous at Clementi MRT at 10.45. Then at 10.35 he sms me say the bus haven't come... so I went to pick him up since it was on the way xP. Then we dropped off at the MRT station, and then we saw Shona and some random girl there. Wootz. Then Mattie was like, "I can't believe Shona recognized you before she recognized me even though she was my classmate! You must have a fan club!" -.0 I replied "My fanclub is a proper subset of yours, Mattie. It's just that you're rare and elusive outside." xD so there.
Then on the MRT, we cubed (no lifing, wahahaha). He was doing a 4 by 4, and I was doing a 3 by 3, and we were racing (I do the 3 by 3 thrice. Lol). I beat him by only abit. Nooo. I'm slow. Bleh. Then we met Roys at the MRT station, and we didn't even know we were on the same train! Haha. Mattie, Roys and me then went to City Hall MRT station, where we saw Zac via a camera. Lol!! Then saw Joel (I did squeeze his shoulder. Haha!) and turns out he was going out with his friends too. Then Shien, Pek, Jy and Terence came. We went to lunch first... since Cal and WZY were still at RJ. Lol.
Subway was... nice but ex? Zac suanned us on the way by showing off his 23 secs (with yudder's imba cube), haha. Oh yeah. Sorry to say this but Yudder your cube exploded with the centre broken. Think Cal or Zac or Roys was playing with it. Bleh. Anyway... ate, caught up with each other, talked about random stuff and then Cal and WZY arrived! Lol. Cal got lost x) damn funny. So yeah, after that we went bowling :D
Bowling was great! Played 2 games. Was quite noob at first, having not played for like, uhm, a loooooong time. Haha. First game I did quite poorly, second game so-so. WZY topped the first game with 94 (yes, we're noobs, thankyou) and Roys topped the second game with a 95+. Cal always got second. Lol.
Went to the arcade to play Daytona. Cal is imba at Daytona! Erpz. I got 4th for the first race, 4th for 2nd, 2nd for third, 5th for fourth, 3rd for fifth. Then I and Cal raced alone, and somehow I beat him x) I pushed his car into the wall, heheh =P. Then watched Zac play the weird soccer game which was quite funny. Haha.
Since there was time before Step Up 2 (I wasn't going, since it was at 4.45 0.o) we went bowling AGAIn. Haha! Another 2 games, this time I topped by getting 2 strikes and 3 spares. 104 was my final score (n00b. Bleh). Then after that I let Zac play, because the movie was starting in like, 5 mins they had to rush off without finishing the game. I and Zac weren't staying for the movie, so yeah we helped finish the game x). In the end I broke new scores for myself, 114 and 111 lol. Zac was doing some imba power curve and it was damn funny! It started all the way from the left and then guttered into the right without touching the pins. So cool xD.
Ahh well. That ended the day with a nice feeling. Leeni did quite well for his race (i think) and yeah, I guess it was really a good day after all. Thanks for making my day guys! :) 2L 07 FTW haha.
Will you come to the party with me? ;)
4:16 AM
what hurts the most
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Haha today was great. (:
(Bleh I'm too lazy to post the photos of yesterday and today, so lol)
Went to sch early to play soccer with Cal, Roys, Choo(ey)!, Zidney, Fei, Deep and Nana. Damn fun. Yes! My control is getting relatively better xP but Cal says my turning is still too obvious. I wonder if there's a relation to my injury? My balance is very bad. Bleh. Next week against 3T (potential champs), zomg. Must WIN OR AT LEAST TRY... =P
Didn't go movie with them since yeah, I needed to go physio. I'm discharged - that's the good news. The bad news is I have to go back for CCA. Wth noooooooo =( lol. The physiotherapist still says my balance needs to be improved (see?) and that could be achieved by increasing quad strength 0.o She claims that because my quads aren't strong enough my weight stress is completely on my knee and ankle, that's why injury so easily come. Nooooo. Bleh. =(
And uhm, yeah yesterday I and Joel were talking about girl politics. It kinda startled me to know about them, even though I knew they existed. I mean like, (no names here, =P) how girl A can be pissed and join a competition that she doesn't even like just because she wants to outdo girl B and C, who suans her? Sounds weird but I kinda understand. Bleh. It's equally tough for girls out there, so what am I complaining about? Sigh. Must work harder, RAWR.
Oh. Speaking of girl politics. An interesting convo last night:
Cal: There's a cute guy in Dewin's class
Ying: Cute as in cute or hot?
Cal: Cute lah. Why girls think cute must be hot ah.
Me: Because girls go for guys who look like hamtaro and have a Bruce Lee body.
Ying: ...
Cal: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Ok I dunno what prompted me to say that. Lol.
x) class outing tmr! Good luck for your race, leeni! :D
Taped tape over your mouth
Scribble out the truth in your lies
Your little spies
-Crushcrushcrush (Paramore)
5:17 AM
what hurts the most
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Astrigue! Got 4th... nooo!!
Bleh. Positions: RG 1st, BPGH 2nd, RI (team 1) 3rd, RI (team 2) 4th.
SCREW IT!
Stacey-Ann (Is that how you spell her name, lol) and Siyi are good. Better than their sec 4's, lol.
Ok. Today was the round deciding whether we were going to enter the finals or not. The final component was strategy game, which was invented by Daniel of RJ astro and questions set by Guo Cong (like, -.0). Then we were paired against RG team 1. Zzz. We were playing, and Stacey-Ann was, uh, acting damn AP. Zzz. She reminds me of Nicolette when nervous xD (no offense). Was sitting opposite her and next to Siyi, and felt damn noob. Zzz. Then Guo Cong had to come along and give me the imba tough questions, saying that he doesn't like me and all that. Lol. Could answer most of them, but then again who can answer this: What song features the planet Jupiter? -.- Wow... lol. Anyway, we beat them by a bit. Haha.
So yeah, the four teams entered the finals. At first my team was leading for the individual questions (Wth!!!) with 30 pts, followed by BPGH 20 pts, RG and RI team 1 with 5 pts. The questions were quite easy la, so ok. But then I guess we screwed up at the pic ID round. BPGH was VERY strong here, and RG. I should have sat in front. Because 3 people were sitting in front of me, I had to stand up to look at the question, and could not reach the buzzer, so needed someone to press for me. Then (surprisingly) most of the questions I knew the answer, but then I tell Joel to press the buzzer, then before he press someone KS. Zzz. Here's a weird and funny convo...
Me: Joel! (points at screen) Great orion nebula!
Joel: Huh?
*KSed by BPGH*
Me: Aiya see we kena KS (the answer WAS great orion nebula)
Joel: Next time, don't shout the answer la. Either squeeze my shoulder or say press!
-------- after a few questions...-------------
Me: (Spots the horsehead nebula) PRESS! PRESS!!!!
Joel: Wth! Squeeze my shoulder!!
*KSed by RGS*
-.- like zomg. Now every time I see him I'm going to squeeze his shoulder. Haha x)
Yeah in the end, they won. I felt abit sad, since I knew most of them but didn't get a chance to say. We might have won if we trained on reflexes for buzzer round. But yeah, I guess my team's success isn't all to me. Of course, without our great and wonderful seniors Joel and Zhao Kai we would never have gotten past all those horrendous mathematical calculations x) and Zhao Kai's incredible memory of formulas and Joel's good knowledge of particle physics. Not to mention Huan Hock who kept me entertained xD
Shit. I don't want to go against Siyi and Stacey-Ann in any competitions in the future, especially NSC. They're really good. ><
Ugh.
Ok, competition over, time to work out, and play hard.
We'll meet again, and next time we face you, we'll be ready.
*Whacks Huan Hock on the head* STUDY HARDER LA. DOn'T WOW.
3:48 AM
what hurts the most
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Omg!! We're actually 4th! TMR STRATEGY GAME must PWN. Since the 2nd bpgh team is 1 pt behind us only... and we need to be 4th to qualify for the finals.
Best of luck to us, and us, and us! (:
Wish I could prove I love you
But does that mean I have to walk on water?
- Simple and clean by Utada Hikaru
This means so much, doesn't it.
Huh.
7:51 AM
what hurts the most
Ahh well. Today was astrigue... I dunno what to say. Mugger: the gathering? lol xP
Anyway, it was pretty tough. Even got some qns that I was quite sure of wrong. Bleh. Probably in top 20, but not as pro as the sec 4s. Screw it, BPGH is in the lead. Nooo. RI FTW! Lol. Something funny (although you may not appreciate this): there was this group qn solving round, where we had to solve a bunch of imba problems (seriously!). And there was this qn that required some Wien's constant or sth. Then Joel go and put 10 ttpo (to the power of) 3000 as the constant. Then after the test Aaron's group was laughing at that, because even in string theory the maximum amount of predicted universes is 10 ttpo 500! Lol! In other words Joel created an extra 10 ttpo 2500 universes. That's damn cool. Lol.
Tmr station games. Sian. Other than me all my members can't play sports for nuts. Bleh. At least it's 10% only.
ERPZ.
Btw, check out my new music blog!
www.musicaelyrics.blogspot.com
:)
3:55 AM
what hurts the most
Monday, March 10, 2008
.......
Like zomg
8:23 AM
what hurts the most
Bleh. Nvm this time I really have no idea why Cal's upset at me apart from copying his lyrics. Sorry for being such a piss-off.
*doink*
ASTRO. Screwed. Chandrasekhar limit, Roche limit, Einstein-Bose condensate, Cubewanos, Entropy, CNO cycle, Schrodinger's equation, fermion and bosons, primordial quark soup, DCBAFGE, tachocline, proton-proton cycle, positron electron annihilation, string-theory, Algol's paradox.
Ahh that felt much better.
Crushcrushcrush - Paramore
I got a lot to say to you
Yeah, I got a lot to say
I noticed your eyes are always glued to me
Keeping them here
And it makes no sense at all
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
Your little spies
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
Your little spies
Crush
Crush
Crush
Crush, crush
(Two, three, four!)
Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one, two I was just counting on
That never happened
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this
If you want to play it like a game
Well, come on, come on, let's play
Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending
Than have to forget you for one whole minute
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
Your little spies
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
Your little spies
Crush
Crush
Crush
Crush, crush
(Two, three, four!)
Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one, two I was just counting on
That never happened
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this now
Rock and roll, baby
Don't you know that we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, hey
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, hey
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
Give me something to sing about
Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one, two I was just counting on
That never happened
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than
No, oh
Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one, two I was just counting on
That never happened
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than
More than this
7:34 AM
what hurts the most
I feel quite bad about today.
Man. My stamina really needs improvement.
*prays tmr's astrigue will be a piece of cake*
Lol.
Cal's damn mean to me. Bleh. I must resist his mean-ness. He's probably going to say suan la. Erpz.
Utterly random song:
Your love is a lie - simple plan
I fall asleep by the telephone.
it's two o'clock and i'm waiting up alone.
tell me, where have you been?
i found a note with another name.
you blow a kiss but it just don't feel the same.
cos i can feel that you're gone.
i can't bite my tongue forever, while you try to play it cool.
you can hide behind your stories, but don't take me for a fool.
you can tell me that there's nobody else. (but i feel it)
you can tell me that you're home by yourself. (but i see it)
you can look into my eyes and pretend all you want, but i know, i know,
your love is just a lie.
it's nothing but a lie.
you look so innocent,
but the guilt in your voice gives you away.
yeah, you know what i mean.
how does it feel when you kiss when you know that I trust you.
and do you think about me when he f**ks you?
could you be more obscene?
so don't try to say you're sorry, or try to make it right.
and don't waste your breath because it's too late, it's too late.
you can tell me that there's nobody else. (but i feel it)
you can tell me that you're home by yourself. (but i see it)
you can look into my eyes and pretend all you want, but i know, i know,
your love is just a lie. (lie! lie! lie!)
it's nothing but a lie. (lie! lie! lie!)
you're nothing but a lie
.
you can tell me that there's nobody else. (but i feel it)
you can tell me that you're home by yourself. (but i see it)
you can look into my eyes and pretend all you want, but i know, i know,
your love is just a lie.
i know,
you're nothing but a lie. (lie! lie! lie!)
you're nothing but a lie. (lie! lie! lie!)
your love is just a lie.
lyrics by CAL.
Sheesh are you becoming more like me or what. That's bad.
6:23 AM
what hurts the most
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Haha. An interesting day of books today.
Went to Bras Basah complex, popular HQ and read some books. Ok, no offence to any females out there, but I saw this really queer but interesting book titled "When men marry bitches". Zzz. I read it, and it was, uhm, I dunno, true to a certain extent but maybe a little too biased at the same time? Lol.
Then went down to central library coz I was forced to =.- Read up on really nice books, like stock investors for dummies and all that. I may start soon, but I have to do financial consideration and analysis first. Stupid recession. Ugh. Calvin and Hobbes is like, so cool. Just realized that Calvin really is like Cal (except of course, girls actually like him xP) and Pek is astoundingly like Hobbes. Haha. Calvinball! So fun, no wonder they were playing it in class last year. I'm slow. Bleh.
I guess it's time I prepared for competitions and fun for this week. Which leaves me no time for my ERP, zomg.
I feel so sad that I don't have someone to call now
But at least I still have my good friends (;
Thanks, guys.
6:04 AM
what hurts the most
Saturday, March 8, 2008
I dunno, but tonight, Leeni has given me many new insights of life.
This was part of the convo
Me: Why is it compatible to a logical argument
GL: It's easier to feel than think I guess
Me: Wow, short and sweet. That's logical sia.
GL: It's like erm, love
GL: You're not going to spend your time convincing the girl you're worthy
GL: You sorta do things to make her happy
GL: Get my point?
Me: Yeah, guess so
That's interesting isn't it. Second part:
Me: Didn't talk to her much
Me: Because I was busy
GL: Right.
Me: Yeah I know
Me: It just sounds like the most common excuse in the world doesn't it
GL: Lemme tell you something I learned
GL: It's irresponsible to have a girlfriend right now because there is absolutely no way you can be a good boyfriend to her.
GL: You have no financial means, no time (Students) and you have to keep it a secret I suppose?
Me: Yeah I suppose
Me: But sometimes we're all dreamers
Me: And sometimes it's just impossible to live without someone else's comfort
Leeni is wise, isn't he.
;)
8:02 AM
what hurts the most
Today was ok.
[note: All readers are still free to tag on my tagboard if you want, although there is a flame war going on. I will respond without any relation to the war, unless you ask me about it]
Uh. Well.
I think it's time for some reflections.
Term 1 has been a disappointing term for me. Of course, there were fun moments such as OBS, but really, some stuff are short-lived. No doubt, apart from those really good examples like Davin and Yuet Chong out there, my class completely sucks. The fun isn't exactly nice humor, the class is ruled by people who aren't doing much about the problems. Sure, Wei Han is obviously trying hard, but perhaps the wrong approach. As I quote, violence is the refuge of the mentally incompetent. Then again, some people don't understand logic, so maybe some things should be left untouched. I don't really want to bother about Yi Zuo, since I already explained much of his character [refer to tagboard] but if you really need to know, apart from contributing to the noise level in class he hasn't done much. He still thinks I'm a guy who acts pro, but is really lousy. Even if that is so, at least I try to go for goals. He can stay at the bottom of the pit, grumbling and mocking others who are trying but failing miserably, and well, life is full of these kind of people isn't it? Survive this obstacle, and move on.
Ken Min is doing well as a treasurer, and I've gained respect for him. Although he may seem playful on the outside, he's a really reliable person on the inside, and hardworking too. He's probably the only person who has changed my initial opinion of him in this class so far. Shaun Choo, despite being a prefect, is unable to control the class. However, this can't be blamed, since he has such a small physique and light voice. He is constantly proving himself despite his small size, and I shall use a cliche, that he is one with the true meaning of the Rafflesian spirit, one that never gives up in face of adversity and obstacles. Naturally, I respect him a lot.
Perhaps I should stop criticizing (or praising) others and look at myself for this term. From Term 1, I still am an obnoxious person, and the first thing I remembered Bryce called me was "Red face". See what I mean by looks are always placed before brains? Anyway, the year started with me having a terrible opinion on the class, and the class having a terrible opinion of me. It doesn't help that my ex - class, which started to have respect for me and me having respect for all of them, just separated. I planned on having leadership roles, having regretted that I had not done so in my earlier years. Then, well, I failed to get it. Now, I shall not speak of how others got it, but perhaps question why I did not get it. Firstly, I do not give others the confidence since I cannot gain popularity (which is hard, since I don't exactly possess charisma) and secondly, perhaps others saw me as an arrogant elitist. That's how I feel I have been. Being too busybody and all, it's time I started controlling that area.
I feel that across this term, academically I have not performed well. I look towards tests like an obstacle, not a measurement of one's capability. I'm still very careless, and have a very short concentration span. Perhaps it is because our class can't exactly have a proper lesson without interruptions from anyone, but most probably it's because I do not focus well. It's discipline. I need to improve on my discipline and personal achievement rate. I have to learn more from Yuet Chong, who really puts effort into his work. I admire his discipline, but then again I shouldn't just admire, I must do.
Lastly, I still must finish off with my interpersonal relationships. It has been a long time since I've talked to you, but I guess I'm really glad that you found someone new. *inserts Leeni quote: It rhymes!* I hope we stay as friends, but I'll never forget that feeling we had when we were together. Remember, you still owe me a present ;)
I need to work hard for Term 2. I will not say my goals anymore. I'm just aiming for perfection in everything, and even if I don't reach it (which I probably won't), at least I'll know I've tried.
I miss you...
I miss you all.
4:08 AM
what hurts the most
Friday, March 7, 2008
I'm feeling really, really Emo now.
The end of the term never gave me the satisfaction it used to. I felt sad. Because I would be gone from my friends, and surprisingly, I would be torn from a source of knowledge and learning. I feel really sad about that.
And now, to make matters worse, Cal daos me and like, purposely ignores my calls. Did I make him angry again. I feel damn sad la. Nothing goes right. Left. Centre. All goes down.
[you can totally ignore this if you're not a soccer fan]
I'm like, freaking pissed with my class already anyway. You know, for soccer, our "highly trustable" CEC calls the shots. But then, they don't have a single thing about soccer, and when they scream at other people, they don't even know what they're doing. I told Yi Zuo that we should be practicing by doing match situations, and Yi Zuo said, no, we're playing monkey first. Ok. That pretty much helps alot. Thanks. Then, during the game, when we were upfield, I told Wei Han to go to the left, so that he could cover the ball on the left since we were both on the right already anyway. Then, you know what Wei Han said to me. He was like, "I DON'T HAVE TO LISTEN TO YOU. JUST BECAUSE YOU TELL ME TO MOVE TO THE LEFT DOES NOT MEAN I HAVE TO." And then, a few seconds later, after Fei's kick to me I cross to the left as Manfred was going to tackle me, and alas, there's pretty much no one there. Wei Han didn't get to touch the ball much, so much for AP. Bryce was quite good, although a bit rough IMO. But still quite good. Roys was the usual consistent player, and Shaun was quite, uhm, imba? He actually defended quite a number of balls from the opponent despite his small physique. Yuet Chong was a good defender, at least possessing the mindset of clearing the ball. He can also run pretty fast, which is good. Then credits of course go to Fei, which saved quite a number of on-target balls. Fei might reach nana's standard if his reaction time is abit faster. Not to mention the hand deflections when he should hand catch, but oh well, maybe it's just that he didn't wear gloves. Then, uh, personally I think my performance wasn't too good. 2/5 attempts (goal:attempts conversion rate) isn't exactly my optimum, but well then again I still suck. My freaking glasses, they drop everytime I pull the ball back. I'm surprised that Cal didn't score, but then I was against WenQi, still under keeper training, so I'm still far off. Main improvement needed now is probably my balance and sprinting. And probably shooting. Right foot kick will always result in a ground, curling kick, but left foot will result in either a precise, straight high kick or a high curling kick, which kinda explained my top corner goal against Deep. Lol. Needs to be consistent.
[you can skip this if you're not really interested in science]
Astro was, uhm, pwnage. Kewei pwned everybody with his imba magical calculator. Somehow, for the quiz, I scored lower than him. I solved the questions logically, and then he used the Random function on his calculator, and he got higher than me. Bleh. I think I must study. Can't even remember the seven sister stars of pleiades. Nor can I remember hertzsprung-russell diagram, wth. Die! For tmr's competition, I guess I'll just have to borrow kewei's calculator, heh (:
Ah well. I hope next week goes all well. 6n and 2L outing, and perhaps alot of personal training. I need to recover and revise whatever I have learnt for the term. Am not doing well, sadly.
[You can absolutely skip this part if you want to]
Take My Hand - Simple Plan
Hey, hey
Hey, hey
Sometimes I feel like
Everybody's got a problem
Sometimes I feel like
Nobody wants to solve them
I know that people say
We're never gonna make it
But I know we're gonna get through this
Close your eyes
And please don't let me go
Don't, don't, don't let me go now
Close your eyes
Don't let me let you go
Don't, don't, don't
Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We can find some place to go
'Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
Take my hand tonight
One last time
Hey, hey
Hey, hey
The city sleeps
And we're lost in the moment
Another kiss
As we're lying on the pavement
If they could see us
They would tell us that we're crazy
But I know they just don't understand
Close your eyes
And please don't let me go
Don't, don't, don't let me go now
Close your eyes
Don't let me let you go
Don't, don't, don't
Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We can find some place to go
'Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
Take my hand tonight
One last time
Hey, hey
Hey, hey
Hey, hey
The raindrops
The tears keep falling
I see your face
And it keeps me going
(Hey, hey)
If I get lost
Your light's gonna guide me
And I know that you can take me home
You can take me home
Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We can find some place to go
'Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
Take my hand tonight
One last time
Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We can find some place to go
(Find some place to go)
'Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
(Love will never die)
Take my hand tonight
One last time
(One last time)
7:09 AM
what hurts the most
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Ahh well. Today was really bad, but then again not the worst of days.
But first, Happy birthday Fei! :)
Thanks for being such an interesting (and weird) friend! Hopefully you'll be one year older and one year smarter! Cut down on aggressiveness and try to be more accepting of others. And good luck with everything for the year!
Yeah well. It started off as a sad day, with me waking up really late. Fortunately there wasn't morning assembly, or I would have been uhm, booked. Right. So yeah, went to school, then everybody started making a big fuss over my drawing. Uh. Actually I thought it looked weird. Uh. Thanks guys.
Then ok, the rest of the day really screwed up. 19/30 for maths cct. Ok that was kinda expected, but then what the hell. Sigh. My results are sinking. I feel so n00b now. Then Wzy suan la. It's like, before he knew his results, he was like, "oh I'm going to fail. For the qn (answer was supposed to be rectangle), I put doughnut. Die..." Then when he got his results back, he got full marks. Wth. Then his usual ego kicked in and he said... "Finally it's good to ace a maths test again." When I asked him how he got full marks, he told me that the teacher liked his answer because it was creative and gave him 2 bonus marks for that. -.0 haha ok Wzy is quite funny. lol.
BIO. What can I say. I feel like kicking something now. Wth. 33/40. Dammit. If I just had 5 more minutes. 5 More minutes. I could have gotten 39/40. Bonus qn I was 100% correct, if I had filled it in. That would have been 4 more marks. Then 2 more marks of course, came from the unfinished punnet square that I could have done in another minute. Dammit. Of course, not to mention my careless mistakes, like writing down B on the answer sheet (MCQ) when I wrote the correct answer, A on the paper. Wah sian. Life damn tough. Gratz to Roys for topping the class with 38/40! And Kaiwen for 39/40, whoa. I must catch up with them. It seems that even things that I'm good in are falling apart due to complacence. Humility. Remember.
Spent the time from 2-3 playing grabble with Chew, and did a nice find: from CAVORTING to PROVOCATING. Haha! Was ambushed by a Mattie in the library, bleh. Claims he found us my the clinking of tiles. Lol.
Then, I went to play soccer with Cal (as usual). Quite fun, although I think I need a freaking change of specks. I dribbled past Nana in 1 on 1, then after that there was 10m between me and goal. I ran straight into the post. Although I wasn't injured, on any normal day I would have scored easily (in fact anyone can, lol). My glasses dropped and I saw the post on the right, so I moved left and crashed. Zzz. And everyone was laughing, kudos to my glasses. Switch to contacts? Maybe.
Then I got myself thinking again. Would I rather have brains or looks. Really.
It just happens to be that having looks is better than having brains in our current society. Having looks gives a better first impression, a better impact on everyone around them. However, having brains only and no looks (ie. me) will only lead people to hate you alot. Firstly, you're ugly but capable. Nobody likes that. Secondly, being smart, you know alot of stuff that people don't, and people are afraid of what they don't know. The more you know, the faster you think, the more secrets you know, you tend to keep to yourself and be complacent. That's like, a 99% result in hating you. Wow. I just happen to be that sad. To know so much and then the very knowledge makes us like an outcast. Is that a purpose in life? To do progress for the society while being like an outcast, while other people with looks are accredited, since nobody believes that someone like you can do something so great. Then again, life is unfair isn't it.
When I asked Nana abt it, he said he'd rather have brains than looks. I really don't think he knows what he's saying. Sigh. Well Cal has alot of looks, and slightly less intelligence than me. (absolutely no offence cal). But his ignorance of others around him as well as self derivated charisma actually makes him very popular. Charisma comes from mostly looks, by the way. I really don't know. I feel like just, uhm. Breaking my knuckles against the floor. Blood spilt the last time I did that, but it just never seems right, does it. How come some people have literally speaking, god's gift?
I really don't know now, but well, I guess it's time for me to do my work.
Bleh.
3:12 AM
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Wednesday, March 5, 2008
I knew it. Today would be a bad day.
Somehow my belief is becoming true - the action of good results in a reversal of bad influence. Simply speaking, once you have good luck, you'll have bad luck.
My Chinese is some screwed crap. I don't know why, but somehow my performance isn't even as good as my standard in sec 1. Uhm. Ok that's only for comprehension. I have no idea what's wrong with my answering, and what's wrong with me. But I know I'm failing bad. I should be reading more chinese books, no?
And well, I'm feeling sad because of much stuff too. For instance, she's found someone else. I guess it doesn't really matter to me, but doesn't it say much about me? I feel like the most extra person on Earth now. When I talked to Clement Zheng and Harold Au (two teachers) yesterday, Clement Zheng raised the topic on "God isn't fair". I suppose maybe it is true after all. Somehow it's a curse that those who have looks don't have the brains, and those who have brains will never have the looks. For all of us, maybe, we just have the brains. Kinda sad that evolutionary creatures has placed looks before brains, but then again it's always the case. Those that have both either will suffer from something or will be disadvantaged at something. Such is the way of human life. There is no perfection, a gift as well as a curse.
I wonder if I'm really being fair to myself. High expectations of myself in the areas I am lacking in. It's really like what Cal told me: It's fate.
I never wanted this to happen, nor did I want anything to happen. I just wished for a peaceful life, and now it's pretty much in shambles. The risk of achievement, the downfall of incompetence.
I'm screwed.
[edit]
A poem I just composed out of leisure. Please vote if you think it should be replaced with the scrolling one, lols.
Once again I’m all alone
For my mistakes, unable to atone
Regretting and forgetting all that I’ve done
Wishing I could leave and run
I remember whence you told me
That you’d love me for eternity
Was there ever truth in the lies?
Did you know how you made my spirits rise?
Like a Roman chandelier
My heart fell down; the clinking shatter
I knew it was always too good to be true
From that day my skies were never blue
I never wanted it to come to this
Perhaps ignorance is truly bliss
But times have come to understand
That delusion would not help and never can
So I say goodbye, one last time
Finish the pages, write the final line
So ends this chapter of this twisted love
Freed from this gift and heaven’s curse.
12:57 AM
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Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Life is tough, but we are tougher!
So said the Leeni when I asked him about "Life damn tough" xD.
Today was a great day, really.
First was PE, which was probably the only bad thing about today. Not that I hate PE, it's just that my 2.4km run SUCKS. 12.40 is barely C. Wth. I walked twice and ran out of pace. I need to train, since the actual test is just what, 1 month away =/
Then was philo, when we had our discussion. The philo teacher allowed me to play cube in class, for two reasons: 1) The subject which we were discussing on, dark matter, is my specialty and since I wasn't allowed to speak I might as well entertain myself with other things. 2) The philo teacher knew that I completely understood the fundamentals of the argument and therefore allowed me to not pay attention. Wah seh. So cool I wish Bio was like that too. xD
Maths was as usual, stone period for me. -Skip- recess -Skip- Chem, where I and Davin just finished the entire worksheet, unfortunately suanning the class in the process. But I'm still relatively weak in chem, since I haven't studied at all. Just using a bit of knowledge.
Assembly was I dunno, lame? But to be fair to the performers they were quite good, perhaps things like that would work in a primary school, but in RI definitely not. We think too much. Bleh.
Ok after lunch it was fun. I, Yudder, Cal, Leeni, Zac and Mattie met up with Plim. We had a nice chat, yeah, like how nice 2L was and how my fan club was a proper subset of Mattie's fan club haha. Really brings back memories yeah =) During lunch, Cal was eating with me la. Then he suggested to have a race to see who finished the food first. I was like zomg wth, I was eating laksa (once per 6 months bowl, lol?) !! o.0 then cal just swallowed the spaghetti like dunno imba crap. So cool and weird.
Ok... then met Leeni (Yay!) and we played soccer. So funny sia. Leeni got imba glove power, but I scored 4 goals against him. Haha. Then Leeni and Aaron did their brotherly love hug which I have pictures on (so sweet xD) and yeah. I'm getting better at soccer, lol. But that still says little. Bleh.
Then we went to watch RG heats. That one was damn fun. There we found Nana posing all over (ok, not so exaggerated) he was "training" in front of the girls for his 100m. So cool right :D we came just in time for the B div 200. As expected, Chern Hwee PWNeD with a timing of 28 secs. Miin got 4th as expected again. Then wth, I saw Sophia running. Like zomg. Yudder was damn jealous sia. He didn't come because he thought Sophia wasn't going. Erpz. Quotes Cal: "Sophia isn't chio what..." Haha. Pretty much agree though :D (No offence to Sophia just in case she randomly comes across this place)
Then I have no idea why or how Nana got all of us to train for sprinting. Suan me lol. I think Nana just wanted to train in front of the RG girls lol. Anyway, we cracked really weird and funny jokes. Haha. So cool. Then Cal suan me as usual. Lol. Then Derek suan all of them by saying his 800 faster than their 400 -.- Lol. Bleh. Feel so suanned haha. Then at the end of all the st00f, we went to do SBJ. So fun. Then when Cal wanted to jump I pushed his butt. Then all the girls laugh at Cal for being sooooo coool! xD Then Cal chase me around the track, and suan me. Again. Bleh. I'm surprised that I can do 220 for SBJ. Oh yeah and there was the water bottle thingey. An empty H20 bottle was lying on the ground. Then Nana decided to throw it at me but PHAIL. Then somehow I keep throwing at him and it hits! And then I also keep hitting derek. Man. Skills xD.
Well ok apart from that I guess that with my 5 min chionged up crappy speech I actually got FIRST for the speech competition, out of 8 competitors. I must be improving or the rest really suck. (Bet Cal will pick the latter, lol)
Ok. Dammit thursday got Maths TA. NOOOOOO. And still got projects.
Life damn tough, but we are tougher! :D
6:34 AM
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Monday, March 3, 2008
Perhaps from the start we were really like immiscible liquids after all.
Oil and water, ice and fire. We never thought the same way. We never needed each other.
So it's goodbye, but we'll still be friends.
It was my naïveté, my mistake, to love you at all.
I just feel like quoting cal's poem suddenly.
Fairytale Heartbreak
When I looked into your eyes,
I saw an angel in disguise.
A soul sent down for me to find,
your name had always been in my mind.
A love not possible to compare,
a force that drove away all my despair.
For you I would give my all,
I would be there to catch you if you fall.
Be it rain or shine,
you would always be just mine.
A special place in my heart,
my feelings for you I would always guard.
And whenever I saw you smile,
the emotions in me ran wild.
Whenever I saw you cry,
my heart wrenched, as though I would die.
Each night as I laid in bed,
thoughts of you ran through my head.
I yearned for your hands to hold,
without you the world would have been so cold.
Staring up at the stars in the sky,
I had never even doubted why.
Because I knew, like that the sea is blue,
my love for you would be forever true.
Or so I had thought.
It was the story I had bought.
All this while, we were pretending,
but I knew this scene was impending.
That’s when it began to sink in.
I knew it, in my heart, deep within.
For some reason, I don’t know why,
I knew that we had to say goodbye.
Deep in my heart,
I don’t want us to part.
But however I know,
This is all just a facade, just a show.
I don’t want to face up to this,
To take us out of our complete bliss.
But I willed myself, preparing to speak.
From the corner of my eyes, tears began to leak.
But I know this sentence has to be said by me.
“Maybe we just weren’t meant to be.”
1:05 AM
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Sunday, March 2, 2008
Sigh I so admire Jane Zhang.
She's beautiful, talented in singing and well liked.
Bleh.
I NEED A BREAK FROM LIFE. SRSLY.
LIFE DAMN TOUGH.
7:02 AM
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Ok. I have about 12 hrs to live.
Kiawei just screwed me by sending random people screwed up messages using my name. For instance, fei, Yi Zuo and Yuet Chong. Fei can understand (THANKS FEI) but Yi Zuo hates me because I'm some idiot and Yuet Chong, uh, "is ready to rape me" (quoted of course!). T_T HEELP what should I do!! Yi Zuo will kill me. Bleh. I think I wanna be like leeni now. Life damn tough *emo*.
To me, my home isn't much of a home anymore. Just a place of refuge, where I stay just for the basic necessity. Bleh.
I'd like to post the song "Loving you" by Minnie Riperton but uhm, I have no idea why the lyrics actually have "making love with you is all i wanna do" in it. So, I shall post the Jane Zhang version. At least it's better :D
Loving you (Jane Zhang version)
Loving you is easy 'cause you're beautifull,
Loving you is all I wanna do.
Loving you is more then just a dream come true,
And everything that I do, is out of loving you.
La la la la la, la la la la la...
No-one else can make me feel the colors that you bring.
Stay with me while we grow old and we will live each day in springtime.
'Cause loving you has made my life so beautiful,
And everyday of my life is filled with loving you.
Loving you, I see your soul come shining through,
And everytime that we, oohh...
I'm more in love with you.
La la la la la, la la la la la...
No-one else can make me feel the colors that you bring,
Stay with me while we grow old and we will live each day inspringtime.
'Cause loving you is easy 'cause you're beautifull,
And every day of my life is filled with loving you.
Loving you, I see your soul come shining through,
And everytime that we, oohh...
I'm more in love with you.
La la la la la, la la la la la...
4:25 AM
what hurts the most
Saturday, March 1, 2008
From today onwards
You're dead in my eyes.
7:16 AM
what hurts the most
Haha. Today's trip to sungei buloh was actually fun, rofl.
Ok. We had our usual lame chat, me and peiyuan. Lol. The food today was gooooooooood. We kinda stuffed ourselves bleh. Lol. Interesting fact I found out just now. This was the conversation:
Me: Aaron how you know GL?
Aaron (Tiong): Eh I thought I told you before
Me: No...
Aaron: Oh... I did what
Me: Did you meet him at a bar or something?
Aaron: Where got. GL isn't the type who go to bar one. He is probably the type who go sit in one corner and say to himself, LIFE DAMN TOUGH. (xD) But he stop already, because I told him if he say that again I won't hug him anymore.
LOLs. xD
Yeah anyway we were bullshitting and all that, cracking lame jokes (and even lamer when jasdeep came) until time to go. Oh yeah tea break was damn funny. It's like, they catered eclairs and then some people from peicai were damn greedy la. They go take 6 or 7 eclairs, pile up on their plate like pyramid like that wtf. Lols. Haha anyway. On our way back, we were talking random crap and watch peiyuan play NDS diamond version (pokemon, duh) and watch him get pwned. Haha. Then when we reached school, Mr Law asked us if we wanted to follow him to the staffroom coz he didn't want to go alone. ROFL! Ok so we agreed and then we went INTO the staffroom which was EMPTY. WHee! Then we saw some interesting stuff (like Yudder's face on the nanyang primary school tin can, zomg) and confiscated items and sorts. Then Mr Law asked me if I wanted any of those cubes and like, zomg he gave it to me 0.o YAY. FREEBIES FTW xD yeah and we got sweets and lots of contraband, confiscated items (note: Cal, there's nothing pornographic so you don't have to ask. Just in case. HAHA) and lol, we went to Harold Au's seating place and left him a note saying: "Dewin and Peiyuan was here and raided your secret stash of sweets on 1/3/2008 at 17.07 standard sg time." Man. I can't wait to see Harold Au's face xD. As pek says, the smile where he looks like he just had a stroke. LOL!!!! :D
Ok ok. So mean. Bleh. Time to finish the SS project and Hist! Switch to serious mode! :) Uh ok time to see how much I've learnt from Eric Koh's imba mind map. Thirty eight points for society and I think I'd probably think of twenty plus more, hahaha. The newsletter shall be super thick. Heh.
Ciao!
-WAIT. Lyrics-
Took my hands, touched my heart
Held me close, you were always there
By my side, night and day
Through it all, baby come what may
Swept away on a wave of emotion
Oh we’re caught in the eye of the storm
And whenever you smile I can hardly believe that you’re mine
Believe that you’re mine
This love is unbreakable
It’s unmistakable
And each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
A feeling my heart just can’t deny
Each time I look in your eyes, oh baby
I know why
This love is unbreakable
Share the laughter, share the tears
We both know we’ll go on from here
Cos together, we are strong
In my arms, that’s where you belong
I’ve been touched by the hands of an angel
I’ve been blessed by the power of love
And whenever you smile, I can hardly believe that you’re mine
This love is unbreakable
It’s unmistakable
Each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
A feeling my heart just can’t deny
Each time you whisper my name, oh baby
I know why
This love is unbreakable
Through fire and flame
When all this is over
Our love still remains
This love is unbreakable
It’s unmistakable
Each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
A feeling my heart just can’t deny
Each time you whisper my name, oh baby
I know why
Cos each time I look in your eyes, oh baby
I know why,
This love is unbreakable
2:23 AM
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