What hurts the Most

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Today is one of the days where you just have a hazy impression of what happened.

But I more or less remembered today has a happy day. (:

Had maths performance task first thing in the morning, highest I can get is now 14/15 ><

Chem was uh, unimpressionable coz I knew the stuff already... I think most of the class did anyway. I spent my time drawing gothic letters like this! :D

Haha. Quite nice. (: Chem was ok lah. Clement Zheng (sir) is still doing a good job, yay. Sad he's leaving soon ><.

Then physics. Lol. The EM wave song. The class was uber chaotic with noise from Kenneth Lim trying to sing it. And Keng Siang fighting with him. Lols. Nvm. It was the first physics lesson that I actually was motivated to do something mathematical 0.o I guess I feel guilty about the test yesterday, huh. ):

Then Bio... LOLS. WE ACTUALLY STARTED ON THE CHEMISTRY OF LIFE. Then Davin and Bryan starts owning. While I still can catch up not far behind, I hand it to their muggerness. Lols. Anyone can answer this - why galactose and fructose cannot form a disaccharide? Sheez. Even Joy Lim dunno the answer. Haha. Aldehydes and Ketones. Zomg. Heisenberg's uncertainty principle. Zomgzomg. Lols. I think half the class was already lost. Poor things (x

Then RE. I ponned the sungei buloh trip because I realized I didn't bring my wetland reserve card. Sigh. Then being the only one staying in school, I did a bit of work in the library, then promptly fell asleep, past lunch all the way from 1 - 2.30. Lols! Then when I woke up Mattie was next to me and I was like, huh. Lols. Then he suan me. Imba lah. Lols. Turns out he finished RE and came to the library and saw me. About to whack me when he realized I was asleep. (: GOOD mattie. Haha. Then we played with Yudder's cube in the library and Zac and Yudder and Derek Suan me (which isn't hard, lols). Then I SAW SOMETHING RARE AND ELUSIVE. NIGEL FONG WAS SLEEEEEEEEEEPING IN THE LIBRARY ZOMGZOMG 0.o whoa! Haha. So lame. But fun :D

Oh. Did I mention I also saw Cal and Wenqi wrestling. Both of them fell down right on Harold Au's shoes. So cool right. Then you should have seen his expression. xD

Yeah. Friends are the best.

You know your luck is running out when good things happen to you, Dewin.

7:31 AM
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Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Ahhh. Chem test and physics test today.

Chem test was easy, but I may have screwed up. As usual.

Then physics CCT was totally screwed up. I think I'd be lucky if I can even pass. Sigh. I just totally got owned by physics.

All in all today was quite a bad day.

Sighhhh.

But today I heard Shaun Choo singing! xD

SO CUTE. ZOMG.

Haha.

And now I keep saying "sheez". Cross between Sheesh and jeez. lol. Stuck to it alr.

Once again, life never fails in disappointing me. And another paradox of humanity has come to realization.

Sheez.

6:29 AM
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Monday, April 28, 2008

Maths was ok.

That's one down, alot more to go. ):

6:24 AM
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Sunday, April 27, 2008

WHEN YOU'VE BEEN SITTING AT THE WORK TABLE FOR FOUR HOURS STRAIGHT, YOU KNOW THERE'S A KILLER TEST TOMORROW.

Maths! ARRGGGH!!!!

Sheesh. I've been studying like how many times and I still don't get it. Equations are fine, but wtf for stats man. And stats constitute more than 50% of the marks (I think!) Omg. Sigh. I CANNOT FAIL MATHS. CANNOT. DOUBLE WEIGHTAGE. RAWRRRRRRRRRR.

On the other hand, screw Chem. I think I can do balancing eqns fairly well.

And uh, death to Chinese project for now.

Tmr got Chinese Zuo wen. Sigh.

Why did I go for hockey training today with so much tmr ):

*die*

3:31 AM
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Friday, April 25, 2008

Sheesh.

P1: Quote from anonymous source: What is most important to a woman is a man's charm. It means how reliable a man is as a whole, how important (blahblahblah) and not how smart, how good looking or athletic he is.

Ok. Assuming that the aforementioned premise is true (Ethos, Pathos). We have an argument!

Then, why the conflict of this example?

P2: Good looking (people) have more percentage of finding a mate as compared to relatively less good looking people, or the worst looking people (like me! :D). So. The paradox.

P3: Why would women/men choose better looking people of the opposite sex, knowing that the better looking one is, the more likely one is to cheat? Doesn't this go against the aforementioned premise? Ethics and Emotion against Darwinian's theory of natural selection. For the second premise, it shows that people of better genes have more chance of giving offspring, resulting in a better gene pool. The paradox follows the Darwinian theory, allowing the ones who have better genes to have more mates and spread more offspring. But why does it go against ethics? Isn't ethics and emotion a development from the Darwinian theory as well?

In order of importance:

P1 < P2

P2 -> Paradox

P1 =/= Paradox

Therefore I conclude this equation is screwed up.

Sheesh. I believe that the Darwinian theory has started conflicting upon itself. Sooner or later, nature will screw up. Nuclear holocaust. Zzz.

Whee ok enough of morning randomness. Time to study and do work! I hope I can finish studying soon so that I can SLAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK. Haha. :D

Bye!

8:32 PM
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Haha RI won!

As expected, tsktsk.

Sheesh. Clean sweep of all prizes that were available to us. ><

So yeah, that kinda ended the day well, (:

(I'm talking about debates in case you haven't realized)

Today.

Uh, well, not much to say but the house carn. Played floorball, and we got overall 4th. Sigh. It's like complete Morrison pwnage. We managed to draw for all our matches except against morrison, where we lost 1 - 0. All the other matches draw 1-1. As Leeni said, that's damn unlucky. Haha. Sheesh. Ah well nvm. It was quite fun though. Although some Bayley members were being serious sore losers. I agree that the ref was a bit unfair and confusing, but what gave Micah the right to push people to the ground? Sheesh. Why do people have short tempers these days. Tsk.

I hope we did well for the rest of the events! Buckley won't get last this year!!! ><

Oh and uh, special thanks goes to Charis for giving those wonderful chocolates (: sheesh they didn't have to be so ex, you know. Anyway, thanks alot! (SEE I AM UGLY. AND DUMB. AND UH, FAT) :D

P.S.

I think NY did quite well in their debates. However, they could have been more precise in dismantling the opponents substantives and support with more strong evidence! Work harder guys! (:

And the Cal suans again... xD

8:04 AM
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Thursday, April 24, 2008

*SNIFF* Hana Kimi's ending was so nice *Sniff*

Haha. Sheesh. It was quite ok I guess. Touching. (;

Today was another round of bad luck. Failed my bio prac. Definitely. I got completely wrong results, which means my table, which constitutes 10 marks out of 14, will probably be a 0. Then the questions are follow ups of the graph. Dammit. And it constitutes 15% of the CA. My bio is screwed. Sigh.

I think I feel like being the tickle me emo now.

If life is so fair, why do roses have thorns...

6:51 AM
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Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Sheesh. The world would be a happier place without annoying parents wouldn't it.

Ok, maybe just the annoying part.

Anyway. Today, it wasn't really anything, but well I thought up of alot of psycho-scientific theories during stone time and I feel like writing them down but UGH, I shouldn't. It's probably sacreligious. Lol.

Uh. Anyway. YAY. I played with Yudder's cube for around 19 - 20 times, and my average was 55-56!!! :D YAY!!! And the best thing is probably I never got past 1 min!!! And a new PB of 51s. And I know Cal will suan me like shit when he sees this. Bleh. I could have hit a 40+ one, but on the third layer the piece popped out slightly and I spent almost 10 seconds to fix it. Got 56. SIGHHHHHHHHHHHH. Nvm this is just for avid cubers.

And yeah, I trained 2.4 after school with Roys. Sian. I couldn't do a full 2.4 coz on the third round my knee acted up again. In the end I ran about 2.2km in total, and uh, my speed was hitting low 11mins. Sian. Roys did 11.05 in the end. We slackened off the 2nd round too much. I wish we ran on track on the day though. Somehow, the track feels such a nice place to run now. Curses to the field, tsk.

Sheesh. I'm so bored that I'm reading Hana Kimi while doing work.

ANYWAY.

GRATZ TO LEENI WHO CAME IN 15TH FOR X COUNTRY AND 2ND IN THE RAFFLES TEAM!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~~~~~~~~

Haha. And uh, now I'm dumb, not ugly, courtesy of Charis. But then again, I'm probably both and lots of uh, other negative stuff. :D

Sheesh. And the Cal SCHWANNNNNNNNNNS

(I like saying Sheesh, got a problem with that? Sheesh. x)

6:41 AM
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Tuesday, April 22, 2008

I think romance exists easier with the four seasons.

Since I've kinda experienced them before.

Spring calls hope, Summer calls physical love, Autumn calls tranquility, Winter calls bittersweet emotions.

Of course, that's not saying Singapore is a red light district. This statement works only in comparison with each other.

We have a sad life here because we are always busy and have little nature *sniff*

Anyway. Today.

I surprised myself by getting A for 4 items. And 1 C for 5 stations.

Ah well. The C was expected, though the A's weren't.

Currently:

Sit and reach: 48cm (wootz. Although it's noob I think it's a miracle I could do it x)
Chin ups: 8! Just hit A (: Argh I'm still tied with Roys though =(
Shuttle run: 9.6s (very noob. Many people suan me)
Situps: 52 (okay lah. Still got suanned)
Standing broad jump: 222cm (It's a C, and it's the furthest distance I jumped. Whee)

Lol. Chin ups I do until my hand nearly bleed because of the grip. Gnuuuuu =(

Then uh, well. Nothing much apart from that.

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeee (:

4:24 AM
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Monday, April 21, 2008

"I want to fly and soar with my dreams" - Tsukasa

Ah well.

Sianz. I did so badly for my Chem. Well at least I think I did. Making careless mistakes like no tomorrow. What the hell. When am I going to wake up. Zzz.

Anyway, today's parliament debates were very nice. Haha. Shall not say much, since most of the stuff is probably prohibited anyway. But yeah, it was very interesting and thought provoking. Hmm. I feel like going down there and debate, but then again I can only think like hell but can't speak for nuts. Zzz. Bleh.

On a side note, I'm hoping tomorrow's 5 stations won't be a problem for me. (:

And uh, well, uhhhhhh.

Magnesium Oxide = MgO = OMg!

(:

6:05 AM
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Sunday, April 20, 2008

Bah. I felt touched after reading "Aishiteruze baby". Kinda made me rethink of what kind of sibling, even parent I wanted to be when I grew up. Tsk. Understanding the thinking of a child is as tough as understanding a woman's thinking IMO, since one cannot factor in the depth of thinking of children. Take a comparison: When you give a gift to a woman and a child, there are always different levels of thinking in both. A slight table would mean something like this.

Response for woman:

a) "I like it"
meaning 1 - she really likes it
meaning 2 - she doesn't like it but says for the sake of courtesy
meaning 3 - she likes it, but is disappointed because she wanted something else
... and many more.

Response for child:

a) "I like it"
meaning 1 - he/she likes it!
meaning 2 - he/she doesn't want to disappoint you
meaning 3 - he/she wanted you to play with him/her instead of a gift
... and many more.

Ok. I know this example isn't a very justifiable one, but it kinda imposes many questions on the huge differences in mentality between genders. Why when we were children, our mentalities were so similar, yet now so different? I suppose the answer to that is experience, but isn't there any part of behavioral trait that came from genetics? Wouldn't a system or a computer program need to have instructions before it can "learn" and evolve? And if so, how are they related? If we could find out the basis of this web of "instructions", human "mind control" may even be possible through genetics.

Ok. After a bunch of cheeming, I feel like screaming, WTF IS HUIYAO DOING HERE. SUAN ME ISSIT. Ah k. That made me feel alot better. Heh.

Bah. Time to do my WORK. Stupid chinese project, curse you $#&!@#*!$!@#*!@83@

Haha. Anyway, I forgot to say we won 3D 3-0. Walkover, sadly.

And the wind blows in the wrong direction
Signifying the dark nights to come

4:00 AM
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Saturday, April 19, 2008

Today was a sad day.

Don't sms or call me for the time being. My phone's not with me.

I just read the manga "elfen lied". It was seriously creepy.

To think the mitochondrial eve is a possibility. So much for Darwinian's theory of evolution. Wouldn't that mean if superior DNA is spliced we would die off. Ugh. Oh the humanity.

Anyways. Been doing chinese project for the entire day, and not much done. Sigh. I hate it. Going to sleep now.

MROWR.

8:44 AM
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Friday, April 18, 2008

They say resonance is a sign of affection. Affinity.

How touching. Lols.

I saw this nice commercial on the newspaper depicting a half filled glass of water. It went:

Half full?
Half empty?
Why not just get a smaller glass?

Well, I must admit, it's not the best of adverts for banks, but it kinda says much about ambitions. But then again, it can refer to one's problems as well. But the problem is, the glass cannot get smaller - and we cannot change the glass. We need to pour in more water to fill the glass. If water represented effort, it could represent my life as a whole. A glass of problems that grows infinitely. When I put in effort, and get close, it never seems to be filled. I'd spend my entire life chasing the rim of the glass.

Then why can't I freeze the water? Won't the glass crack? There. Thinking out of the box. Channel your energy not to handle just a single problem, but to handle the gist of the problem - the infinitely growing glass. Just like nature, it occurs in an infinite detailed system, one which cannot be measured by man, one which cannot be measured by the existent. The cycle of everything. Duality. Great.

Now that I've finished ranting, I just realized I'm some screwed up guy who always lags behind others, tries to catch up, and always fails.

Why do I even need pity? Why in the screwed up world do I need self pity? Do I even deserve pity. And who am I to judge others?

The world is blue. And we conform with it. We bring everything into acceptance.
Therefore I should bring minor things like this into acceptance.
Stepping stone.

8:09 AM
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A really random quote.

Story Background - Kenneth Lim screams the F-word out loud to someone else in front of Ms Cho.

Ms Cho: KENNETH LIM. WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY?!

Kenneth: Uh... I ... Ah... Ma'm I didn't say the F word. I ... Uh... Said... Uh... the P-H-U-C-K word

xD

Dude. Hilarious.

On a side note, the inferiority complex is back. And Calvin has nothing to do with it. Well maybe abit, but this time it's worse. Sian.

7:12 AM
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Thursday, April 17, 2008

Today was an average day I guess.

Sianz. I think I may fail SS. I actually wrote in full force against the motion. Wtf. I MAY FAIL. SOBS. T_T

Oh anyway we were watching this show (I forgot the name) that was so funny. Ironically, it was supposed to be on social advocacy. There's this woman, whose name is (I forgot!) who is mother of three kids and in lots of debt. Then somehow she gets tied up to this law firm, and investigates on a case. Then this case proves to be some imba unsolvable-against-all-odds case, then in the end happy ending. And believe it or not, it's a true real life story. Waaaaaaaaa so touching x)

Anyway, a quote from the movie.

Lawyer: Now, miss, how do you think you will ever get your hands on the documents when all information is classified and kept under security?!

Woman: They're called the boobs, Ed. The boobs.

Then an absolutely vulgar scene which I can't stop laughing at.

Woman: Why the hell are you screaming at me for!

Lawyer: COS I'M PISSED.

Woman: Scream at someone else then!

Lawyer: FUCK YOU!

Woman: FUCK YOU BACK!!!

xD

Ok. I'm hoping no one sues me for vulgarity usage. I'm just quoting a movie. tsktsk.

K nvm, time to go. Bb.

4:15 AM
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Wednesday, April 16, 2008

RAFFLES FOR THE WIN!!!

Yeah! Finally we won in B div squash against ACSI. 3 - 2, heheh. Finally we're no more second! :D

Was quite exciting - we were losing 2 - 0 at first 0.o then we actually won all 3 to come back. Thanks to the rafflesian spirit, blah blah. x) The fourth match was the most interesting. The angle shots were really, really imba. Wootz. Four bounces before connecting the wall right above the red line. Fantastic. Haha. Man kinda make me feel like I want to play squash again. Lols.

So yeah, gratz!

On a second note. I'm being damn emo again. GPA overall 3.24, losing out to so many of my friends whom I once was better than. Sigh. If my physics had gotten my usual 4.0 instead of 2.4, would have been 3.43, tsk. DAMMIT. ARGH.

And the wind doesn't help blow my tears away.

6:26 AM
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Monday, April 14, 2008

Sigh. Other than screwing up chem cct, I think today was very screwed up.

Nvm. I'm too tired, to dead, and too emo to post.

Kudos to this amv.

Sigh.

8:11 AM
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Sunday, April 13, 2008

Nothing really much today...

Except I found out that Deb thinks Cal is uh, "Not bad".

Tee hee x)

Ok. Jokes aside.

I'm feeling quite down now.

Light headed coz of my haircut.

Sorry for the lame joke there.

I cried after reading a touching story.

What's wrong with me.

What would I do when I realized that she was always there for me and I never knew and did anything...
That is the question.

8:43 PM
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Saturday, April 12, 2008

Happy 15th LEENI!! (:

Thanks for being such a great friend! Remember to always be committed in whatever you do, and always strive for the best! Be a great cross country captain, a well-liked head boy and a fantastic friend to everyone! x) hahaha sorry I didn't have a birthday present, =/

Ok. Apart from that.

Yesterday.

International friendship day - first thing in the morning.

I was pretty touched by the foreign scholars who performed for us on stage. They sang songs of their homeland, and even though it may be a little cheesy I wish people would be more considerate. Bleh. Then again, I'm not very considerate always. Maybe I just felt very uh, sad yesterday. Haha.

Maths. Was. Horrible. Screwed up TA, expecting to get close to full marks yet getting a mere 8.5/13. Which is 65%, which sucks. Why the hell must maths be double weightage. Sigh.

CLE... Lol. Was on dating. Like, uh. Yucks. Then again, who am I to say that. x) haha. I shall totally skip that part then :D

Then for english we had a lesson by Jacob sam la rose, some award winning poet. He would make a good teacher, seeing that he was so much more productive than alfiani x) but then again I guess it's only because he's teaching here once thus the enthusiasm. Haha.

Then I had completely nothing to do until 6 yesterday. Zzz. So I played abit of soccer, abit of basketball. Haha. I'm completely noob as always. 2 in 8 shots. And still can't even do a layout. Lols. And roys is pro as usual. Bleh.

Then went for an early dinner at 5. Then bought nic's stupid brocoli. -.0 Brocoli, brother of E-coli. Haha. So lame. x) Then Charis also wanted a choc bar, then had to get her one. Zzz. Went back to school, met bryson, then we went searching for the debating area until we reached there 15 mins late. Then I really see why Renjie debating skills are world class now. He hits the crux of the point, even in rebuttals. And he's polite, at the same time command a persuasive voice. Makes me wonder how I ever tried to stand on equal foot with him before. x) I guess I'm still a stepping stone. So there.

One thing I and Nigel agreed on - the HCI - NY debate was completely on a lower level compared to the RI - NJC (IP) debate. Yeah. HCI probably only lost because of their first speaker and Liki screwed up (sorry!). NY didn't really do a fantastic job, so well yeah.

Then passed Nic her brocoli -.0 and well, Charis went home early so she was feeling apologetic. In return she's gonna buy a bar. Yesssssssssssssssssss if you're reading this I want uh, something nice. Thanks :D

**************

Today.

ORA!!!

LOL. I came so freaking late for the run. Haha. I officially took 25 mins for 1.6km. Whee~

Saw lots of people. Met up with old friends, whom I shall not mention for fear of being spammed in class. Anyway. Haha Deb and Cal finally met. :D hahaha x) then uh, yeah I also went to the dunking booth. Was so cool. I dunked Ben Goh and Soh Yu Da. Both tries didn't miss. But then again I was using a basket ball... and it was chest level, so just a chest pass would suffice, wouldn't it. Haha. Too bad shaun choo didn't go. x)

Then uh yeah, walked around, chatted abit about primary school days and stuff, as well as uh, other stuff too. Then bought random stuff, and was dragged along by _____ to buy stuff from the stalls. -.0 So anyway, we went to the hall, since it started raining at around 12. Then we got damn sian. I, Cal and Fei went playing BB in the rain. Hahaha. Played ABC. I lead by quite a lot. But then again, the Cal suans. Bleh. Just tried using the board and uh, not too bad lah, haha.

It was quite a fun day. (:

But since I'm rushing this post I can't do any more comments. Bye! x)

11:52 PM
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Thursday, April 10, 2008

This is a rushed post!

Yesterday... was quite a day. Well. Sad to say I can't remember lots of stuff, but yeah, I remember I got points for swimming yesterday. I think it was really great that I actually totalled around 10 pts or more. Heh. Apart from that, I don't remember much. Sigh.

So today, uh, I guess it was ok too. Was uber nervous about today's physics test though. Luckily it wasn't so hard. Phew. Yay. I guess that's all. Really, not much to say.

Bah. Tmr JGs. And I still owe them... nvm. Dammit. Shall go get them stuff at the last min. Lols.

kk nitez

10:41 PM
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Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Sorry guys, I'm kinda mentally traumatized now. Just read the manga "School days" on onemanga.
I think I'm going to die just thinking about it.

Will post tomorrow.

8:40 AM
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Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Today was tuesday. Quite eventful.

First thing in the morning. PE. Sigh. As usual I screwed up. Even though I scored twice, I missed more than 20 plus shots... almost all 3 pointers. I always just hit the rim, but never go in, what's the use? Haiz. And uh, Roys, the reason why I can't use the board is coz I always throw with too much force. I dunno how to control my strength and accuracy separately. I always put them together =X bah. That's why I'm better further from the board than close up. ><

Anyway. Next was Philo. Lol. I got 2nd in class. And Roys suans me by getting first as usual x) but ahh, who cares about philo. Why the hell do I get good marks for subjects I suck at. I got 23.5 and Roys got 25. Out of 30. Which means I missed 4.0 or A+. Wtf. GNUUU that means Roys is the only A+ in philo hahaha x) that's cool. I hope I can uh, get a good mark for today's test too. Lols.

Maths. Uh. Probably the first time I paid alot of attention. Yep. Inequalities. Haha.

Then Chem after recess. Lols. Chem was a damn funny session today. Clement (Zheng!) xD So uhm, yeah. He was teaching about the structure of different forms of carbon aka diamond and graphite, ignoring the fullerenes. Then dunno how he got to enthalpy and then to cut and all that. Lols was quite funny. Then I and Davin were firing questions at him. He looked so poor thing x) bah. Then I asked him a question "Why is diamond less opaque than graphite, when the energy level is higher and molecules so close to each other?" Then he dunno, then I dunno also, then he ask me to check it out and print out for the class -.0 lols. Ahh nvm. Then he finished his lesson 25 mins early, and he used it for those who needed help in the project room. So then we damn lax. Then Kiawei used his I-pod touch to connect internet and view WeiHan's blog. Then random stuff happened. Super funny. Kiawei started to read his blog aloud. Then after every sentence, Ervin went to repeat the last word of the sentence raising both his hands up, like a worship. Then after that everyone followed. So it went like..

Kiawei (quote): I want tomorrow to rain
Bunch of people: Rain...

Kiawei (quote): Mom can I buy a bra
Bunch of people: Bra...

Kiawei: I want to stop thinking about her
Bunch of people: Her...

Then Weihan got damn pissed. Haha. Was quite funny. x)

Assembly was fun, surprisingly. Lol. Weihan kena some funny pose. xD haha. Quite nice the overall show.

Ahhh. After school. Went for interclass soccer. Sigh. In the end, there was no match, since there weren't enough 3G players. Walkover 3 - 0. Quite disappointing, since I was looking forward to the match. Somehow I just feel that without playing it's abit sian. Bah. Then played random soccer. It's still that stupid thing I have. Now I can only score with my right foot. Left foot will sky or inaccurate. Bleh. It just irks me. Why I always do better at things that I'm not supposed to be good at? Sigh.

Then it rained. *Not intended to pun Weihan's walking in the rain crap, lol* Uh we went in to the canteen, then met Harold Au and Clement Zheng. Then we talked and stuff until the rain became a drizzle. Then we went shooting hoops (basketball). Then I learnt how to play ABC from Cal and Roys. Then suddenly it started raining like shyt again. But then I and Cal and Roys stayed out. Lol. We played ABC. I was losing like crap at first coz I can't shoot close shots for nuts. Especially in that rain! Nvm. Then I actually caught up and overtook. Haha. Then Joseph Chong asked us to come in and dry ourselves. Lucky he never scold us. Phew. Then we went back to the canteen.

Then Nana and Jasdeep came. We played cube and then Cal suanned me. I told Nana that we were playing ABC in the rain. Then I asked him if he knew what was ABC. Then he said, "The alphabet ABC lor... JUST KIDDING. HAHAHAH" -.- then when I asked him again he got all defensive and say like, what, you dunno ah ask me for what. Then Nana was making a big deal saying that he can solve the cube faster than me. Seriously. What the hell if you dunno something can you just say. And even if you know, is there anything wrong with saying it? Does keeping this "knowledge" with you give you a sense of satisfaction. And you didn't have to like, boast about yourself being able to solve a cube faster than me. Does that give you any pleasure. And laughing like some retard doesn't get you anywhere too. Cal suans me, but he is good at lots of stuff. Being ego at someone like me isn't worth it ok. Waste your energy on something else, please. Anyway. Roys says it's my spotting that's damn slow. Maybe. I take on avg 6-7 seconds for the cross, the time when Cal finishes putting in the edges (or maybe some of them). Not to mention how slow my F2L is, 37 secs wtf. Sigh. Then my movements also abit too much force, maybe that's why the cube very slow also. I keep jamming it. To be noob at stuff as usual.

And I went home, pissed for being such a noob and about the match. And tired as well. Studied abit of chem. And now here I am, damn sad. Feel like going back to the days when I never wanted to smile or see one.

It's a dark road ahead.
And hopefully I'll make it through alone.

5:00 AM
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Monday, April 7, 2008

Today was a boring day...

Apart from a series of depressions. Why are my grades dropping when I seem to be doing so well?

Anyway. Happy 444th birthday shakespeare in uh, I dunno when! x)

Uh well. I feel like quoting a Calvin and Hobbes quote:

"Do you think love is a biochemically engineered reaction to ensure that our genes get passed on?"

Well, all I have to say is, if it is then whoever made it was pretty successful. No wonder there are such things as human limitations.

Oh. Screw the world. This sucks.

P.S. To all 3P people!

WE BETTER BEAT 3G TMR. KTHXBAI.

7:08 AM
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Sunday, April 6, 2008

So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue
To see you once again, my love
Overseas from coast to coast
To find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green
To see you once again, my love

Thanks for everything (:

8:29 AM
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Saturday, April 5, 2008

Ok. Yesterday.

Yesterday was a multitude of events. Very busy.

First, in the morning, we had maths. Skip.

Then we had chinese. Ok. I may take back what I said about my physics. My chinese is actually worse than my physics. I failed my CA. Even worse than, Cal (in all due respect Cal, uh, your chinese isn't that good ><), probably. I can't believe I failed for the CA. But at least my CCT marks pulled it up. Wth. Even Kenneth Lim who goes around copying other people's works can get a high mark, what does that suggest? Seriously. What the hell does that suggest. There is no equality in this world, is there. I mugged my life out for the chinese CCT, and lost to so many people who just slacked through the entire thing. Then I tried my best for stuff that counts for CA, and guess what, I failed almost every single one of them. Maybe that's why I hate languages so much. If you don't have the feel for the language, you can never do it.

PE. I was damn emo (really, really emo) over my chinese, that I didn't even want to play basketball at first. Seriously. How can I fail my chinese. Nvm. I played, but screwed up like shit as usual. Really, no heart to play anything anymore. Chinese screwed my academia. Wow.

Then CLE was uh, not much lah. Skip.

Then after school we resumed the 3L match. I can't believe we lost our lead. According to Cal and Roys, the first goal was let in coz Weihan made a defensive error of not blocking the defender. But then he say he was too tired, so nvm, we subbed him off. Bryce scored a nice header, effectively suanning the goalkeeper's height (LOL). Then, the 2nd goal from 3L came from the scholar. Seriously. That shot was imba. It was a super tight angle, and then he rammed it above theodore's head. At first I thought it was going to sky, but then the ball hit the crossbar. I think there was an underspin, then it bounced inwards instead of outwards. That was damn tyco or scary, I dunno what to say. Then it ended in a draw. Pretty disappointing.

Went for science club quiz team training on chem, where we learnt about enthalpy change and reaction. Delta H is equivalent to the change in energy level. Blahblahblah. Cheem.

Then left halfway for our second match, against 3F. We screwed up. Big time. Against 5 people only (when there are supposed to be 7), we only won 3 - 1. First goal was scored by Zhao Kai (lols.) when I had a free kick. I curled it too much and it hit the post, then Zhao Kai ran into the ball and it went in. Lol. Poor Zydney. Then second goal scored by chooey, who kicked the ball between Zydney's legs and scored. Edit: (BALL, NOT BALLS -.-) Yeah. Then I scored the third goal on the right post. Bleh. DEREK YES NOW YOU OWE ME A TREAT KTHX :D lol. Uh. The one goal we let in was coz we thought the ball was already out. Then Yikang continued to play and we all we arguing with the ref, then he scored open goal. Then suwe say no out. Then we were like, wth past the line, but aiyah, dammit. Should have played to the whistle, our mistake. Sigh. Lesson learnt. Anyway, I got injured seriously by some guy at the opposite field. I was running full speed for the ball, then another guy from the opposite field also run full speed towards my direction. Dunno why. Then when I tried to avoid after seeing him, I was too slow, then he crashed his elbow into my left shoulder. My shoulder now swelling and seriously pain. I scared hairline crack, ><. At least it seems to be working.

So, then IMMEDIATELY after that I went to swim 100 freestyle, with my arm injury and all that. Zzz. Leeni says it's ok. Then I jump in, swim, then I nearly caught up with Ryan Goh. Damn. Did 1.25, which joel says it was ok, although I know he suans me -.- lols. Aiyah. Was a bad day lah. Sian.

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Today.

Went to do CIP at jurong east MRT at 8.30. Was in the same shift with lao tee, so :D haha.

Yeah. We had a damn fun time. We went to collect donations for flag day. Then was quite ok, seeing that the people at Jurong East are quite generous. (: then I had the brainwave of going to the science centre, haha. Lol. I went to ask a guy at the science centre whether he would like to donate. Then here's what happened.

Me: Good morning sir, would you like to donate to charity?
Random Guy: Sure. Boy, you're doing a very noble thing. I hope you can continue doing good for charity.
*fishes out 50 dollar note and gives me*
Me: OMGZ THANKS YOU pWNZORS (ok i didn't say that lah x)

Lol. Was damn lucky to find rich guy. Then yeah, was happy lor x) . At first I was collecting 10, 20 cents then this guy gimme 50 bucks, of course happy. Heheheh. Then I also got another uber lucky time. I was asking some guy outside 7 -11...

Me: Good morning sir would you like to donate to charity?
Random Guy: Ok wait ah, I go inside, buy something then give you change.
*waits*
Random Guy: Ok, here. *Gives me 2 dollars* By the way, you can have this.

*Dewin recieves PEACH TEA.*

Lol. That totally sounded pokemon-ish. x) Yeah seriously, I can't believe he gave me something. I was like, omg thanks? Haha. Then Mattie suan me. All the girls all go to him one. x) they all give him nice donations coz of his imba hawt-ness, suan luh. Lol. Oh well. Here's another conversation.

Mattie (approaches an adult): Good morning sir, would you like to donate to charity?
Random Guy: Oh sure. *fishes out wallet* Oh, sorry, I don't have any change. I only have big notes.
Mattie: *grins* Nothing too big for us, sir!

Lol x). Then he walked off. >< but nvm, that was fun. We were discussing about how we should stand next to the bank, then uh, get donation from them when they walking out x). Lols. Anyway, in total I hit 100 bucks around there. Ye Zhou did quite well also, but he didn't get big catch so I think I slightly higher. Roys and Fei... Roys did quite well also, but Fei must go be more active and ask. Haha. Then when we were walking back... we handed the stuff to the person in charge. Then she suddenly looked at Mattie and said...

Lady: Eh! Your spectacles very cute you know!
Mattie: Uh... Only my spectacles?

*Waits 5 seconds for words to sink in*

Lady: Oh! No, I mean your face also very cute. Very handsome. Come, handsome get to eat more biscuits.

xD

Ok so that ended kinda funny. In the end she said we looked like brothers -.- but we all know that Mattie too HAWT and I too fugly. Lol. So yeah, then she spammed us with biscuits she bought and we went off. Lol. x)

Yeah that kinda ended the day.

I went home, and thought about some stuff though. It seems that whenever I do stuff for other people, I do a bang up job but whenever I do stuff for myself, I never can do it right. I feel like a stepping stone, somehow. A thing that solely exist to allow others to progress. Why? I hate this feeling. I exist for other people. What is my only consolation? That without me others can't progress? Is that a happy feeling? It just goes against my view of life. Sigh.

Nvm. Will end the uber long post now.

5:00 AM
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Friday, April 4, 2008

Arm injured today. Will post fully tmr, sorry.

8:16 AM
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Thursday, April 3, 2008

Yesterday was screwed up. It was a terribly sad day, with the entire class waking up and going to school at 7.15. Then Eric Koh came and told us that our learning journey was in the AFTERNOON. Screw it. Then our whole class was damn pissed. I borrowed ankle weights from Nana, 3.5kg per leg. They were ok lah. Until I started running with them.

Anyway, I, Lingfei, Kenneth Lim and Richard Ng went to ask some teacher whether we could go for the morning session. Then he said yes, if there are vacancies. Then after awhile he said yes, so we attended some 1+ hour long talk that was super boring. Then after all that, we followed NPCC to the bus. We boarded the bus, and suddenly, they realized that some people just came, and we have to get lost! Wow! -.- Then the teacher was like saying, look, it's not my fault, wth. I seriously don't know what's wrong with RI management. They can't even handle an event like this properly, and waste our time.

So, I spent the morning doing work with Richard in the library, until I realized that the entire class was watching a video in the video room. Lol. So we watched a while, then went to play basketball! Then uh, I scored a 3 pointer x) during the match. I think it's because of the ankle weights, coz usually I always over-throw and bounce off the board. Never mind. Who cares. Kiawei and Roys was damn imba as usual. Aiyah. Leave it to the pros, lol.

Then yeah, learning journey. Not much, boring stuff. Thus ends yesterday.

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Today.

Damn busy day. Started the day with 4 tasks.

1) Study for maths TA
2) Prepare for zuo wen competition
3) Finish up philo ws
4) Go swim carnival

Ok. First period was chinese, the cursed zuo wen competition. I think I did ok, if not for the cuo bie zi. Lol. Nvm. Skip.

Maths... was ok I think. Hopefully I can get 10 /13 at least.

Physics. I dunno what happen to my physics. It's currently my worse subject. Wth. Even worse than my chinese and english, which says something. 7.5 / 15 for my practical. I really dunno what to say, when GL got 14.5. How come the people I know are progressing so far while I'm actually deteriorating? Why am I moving backwards when others move forward? Sigh. It really irks me. And there I go with the inferiority thing again.

English. Skip.

History. Uh. Boring. Skip.

Btw, I never finished my philo ws. Must do now, tsktsk.

Swim carn. I actually went for it. Then I actually got around 35 secs or lower for my 50m freestyle. But then Kenneth Lim just had to be in my heat and thrash me. Lol. I got 2nd in my heat. I think I qualified for the finals (I hope ><). Then I swam 200m breaststroke. For sixth place. Since there were only 5 people in it, I registered coz of straight finals. x) I shaved off 1 entire min from the qualifying time, but I still came in last. That's how imba RI swimmers are. Nvm, that's a free 4 points, :D

After swim carn, I went to the canteen and found Clement Zheng and Harold Au with some of their ex-schoolmates teaching in other schools. Got this guy teaching NYGH physics sec 2, super funny. His basketball is damn imba. Seriously. Lol. Then we were talking about random science stuff, and then history, and than about teaching in a girl's school xD. It was seriously hilarious. Here was one scene.

(The teacher's name is Mr. Guo)

Mr. Guo: You know you should never teach in a girl's school.
Me: Why?
Mr Guo: You know, one day I was walking down the road lah. Then this bunch of NY girls ran past me. I was like Okayyyyyyyyy... then suddenly one turn around and shouted, EEYER NOT CUTE ONE. Then they run off. I was like, wtf?!!!!
Me: HAHAHAHA

x)

And lots of other funny quotes too. But never mind. Again, I feel that sad feeling of incompetence when I see Cal and other people. Sigh. It is freaking painful you know.

And you can't hurt me with the things that you do
I'll pick a dandelion and I'll give it to you

5:25 AM
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Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Ok. Just quotes.

Today we went learning journey.

Guide: You see, this gun battery is the most unique, because it has only one gun barrel and two watchposts. It is the oldest among all gun batteries...
Me: ... yeah, coz that's when eyes were better than guns.
Mattie: Yeah. Eye power. Bzzap!

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Mattie: Uh... what are those boxes underneath the watchpost for?
Me: I think they're for putting the magazines.
Mattie: Oh. I thought they were a good place to hide when it's raining.

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Anyway. Today learning journey was really screwed up. Will post tmr. Hopefully tmr can be ok for swimming.

8:09 AM
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Sorry Im veryvery tired!

I fell asleep on the com 0.o

Will post tmr...

7:18 AM
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Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Ahhh. Another day of funny quotes.

Right. I forgot to add in this quote yesterday.

(My dad gave me, matty and hongen a lift home)

Dad: Uh why has RI installed barrier gates?

Hongen And Mattie: Because of Mas selamat!

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Ok. Today's quotes:

Linsen: Wahlao. Dewin. I'm sure la. You're in Suanner RA.
Me: I'm sure la. You're in mugger and nerd RA.
Linsen: Aiyah. Kang in all of the above la.
Kang: Linsen if you don't shut up you'll be in flying RA.

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Me: Do you know about Cations?
Mattie: I am nonPLUSsed.

So much for weird quotes, Heheh x)

Bah. Tmr got learning journey. Haha. To the west. :D

P.S. Sorry guys! I'm becoming damn noob at Scrabble. Alot of my words today were false. Must go revise abit. >< (I shall not list the words out here in case Ligay or GC passes by, heheh)

x)

6:34 AM
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