"You tell me that you need me then you go and cut me down
but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around
And say
That it's too late to apologize
It's too late"

Typing on my new com! :D

hmm. Today was the mini @ signature park before causeway/ wysc. How did I fare? Well... lets just say I screwed up big time. Even though it was way better than I expected, seeing that I haven't really touched scrabble for what, 5 - 6 months. Wins: 2 / 9 games, both against Blias. Heheh. ;D

No bingo that I'm proud off. The thing about lack of practice is that I chicken out of A LOT of bingoes. Like SOMERSET, which is good, but I didn't dare play it, opting for a safer REMORSE (well, at least it's a common word) with a phony laid down POZE* which Tony obviously challenged off. And yes, it cost me that game. Gah. Also missed DIMBLES, UNMOORS and many others which I cannot be bothered to remember xD

WYSC in what, a week? I better work harder man. Alpha tells me to quackle for the rest of my days and do self analysis. I better listen to him, since he thrashed me by 276 (I think) points. Sick. Yes, I gave him the high game =.-

Ah well.

Still can't get over CSIA, somehow. ):

I still think life is very sad for us humans... because we do not know our purpose of living.

Just something I thought I'd share.

Right k, bye.

6:00 AM
what hurts the most

Ah my 300th post.

Sigh. Today I've learnt so much, just by going to the Sg expo.

And yes, it is an emo post.

I went out to the Expo after lunch, for the IT fair and to get my little bottles of C1000 orange/lemon juice (lol probably only Davin and Royston will get what I am referring to). Yep, they sell it there. Somehow.

Okay. The reason I am emo is this. I have realized despite how much knowledge I have, how much stuff I know, in the real world, if I do not know how to apply them, I am worse than someone who knows nuts but can be street smart.

That almost cost me my newly bought laptop... (I almost came back empty handed)

Okay I think the story would be too long, but basically, I've learnt to keep my mouth shut and think through all possibilities before I make my move.

Yeah...

Okay, on the brighter side of things... On my 300th post, I got a new laptop! xD

It's quite imba. Fujitsu... 2.46GHz processor and 4GB DDR3 RAM. Like wootz. I don't have to worry about lag anymore! Yay! :D

Oh, and it has a 3 year warranty xD

Ah well I should stop being braggish and be more conservative about information. Something I learnt today too. I must never let myself get overconfident on anything. "de2 yi4 wang4 xing2" in chinese. Okay. Whatever, I'm getting incoherent.

I pray that I will have the will not to quit scrabble after getting owned tmr. xD

Yep, byes!

5:33 AM
what hurts the most

Today.

Had training at temasek poly... think I did okay for today's training. Definitely lacking in fitness, have to do it myself. Otherwise, I think I did okay.

That's basically the most interesting thing that happened today O:

Ah well. I really need to study for IYPT and scrabble I guess. Two major competitions for sg and I'm staying at home, playing, randoming around. Must. BUck. Up. Ugh.

I think I will be damn sad if I listened to Jay Chou's "Jie Kou" next year. Surely will become damn emo again. ><

Right, bye (for now!)

4:53 AM
what hurts the most

Like omg. I'm listening to all the freaking emo/ reminiscent songs... Cannot take it liao. xD

Nobody - wondergirls
Superwoman - Cao Ge
Only want to be your friend - David Tao
Mirotic - DBSK
Thunder - Boys like girls
River flows in you - Yiruma
Balloons - DBSK
Because of you - Kelly Clarkson
A whole new world - Aladdin

Sigh... I think I miss them more than ever. A part of me is trying to grasp at those bleached photographs that are slowly fading as they move further away from me...

Everyone has to move on with their lives I guess. People come, people go, it's the circle of life.

It'll take time.

9:43 PM
what hurts the most

AHAHA = pineapple

In cyrillic text, of course :D

Lol okay today.

Nothing much apart from the biz@sch interview and training today...

okay the interview.

The interviewer was 15 minutes late, and I overheard his excuse. Not intentionally, but just because I was in the vicinity. "Sorry, I was at my girlfriend's house, then got traffic jam from there." Like wth. And I thought I was late already without a valid reason -_-" anyway, the interview was screwed up. They told me that my idea wasn't very feasible (I agree, I crapped it up in 5 minutes -_-") but yeah they said I was good to go. But then, I have to slot myself into one of the teams since all other teams are under-membered, and obviously I can't one man show the whole thing xD. Ah well.

Training today - it was rather light, although tiring. Reason? Singapore's air is so much more denser and polluted than korean mountain air xD lolz. Oh yeah, speaking about OIP. I think we were the luckiest group. Pple like WaiChoong who went to ShenZhen was complaining about the food and no. of people per dorm lol. >< ah well =P

Sigh.



"It's hard... to let go" - Simple and Clean

7:31 AM
what hurts the most

It's been what, 4, 5 days? I still can't get over it. Everything seems ethereal now, and those memories seem distant, yet close up at the same time. Like the waves on a shore, they gently crash against the sand before whirling back lazily in spirals to the vast ocean of memories. The descending fog thickens and everything becomes blurry, just like those fading photographs of you and me, swirling back to the depths of lost space and time.

That was my little bit of descriptive narration, but then again I think it sucks. Heck.

"Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forwards" - Soren Kierkegaard.

Sigh...

Today nothing much, except for playing table tennis with Matt :D His reaction time is super fast. Like wth he can return smash my smash. Damn sick. Oh yeah, I was using a korean bat. Really fun :D somehow I think my spin is way better with it. Well at least I can aim the ball in whatever direction I want now heheh :P

hmm kay. Random photos now.



Me and Yeni! I think I just made the photograph look damn screwed up. Haiz ):



Jeesoo, who will (probably) be coming to school next year :D



Brandon and his sexually spontaneous buddy ;)



YuenHyung and Yeni in an epic pose. HSM 3, anyone? :D

Okay. I think that may be the last few photos...

Happy holidays everyone ><

7:46 AM
what hurts the most

Aha. Today's post.

First: Gratz to the APAO team on bringing by 5 bronzes! (LOL). And of course, gratz to Stace who claims she screwed up her practical and theoretical but still got a bronze -_-"

I may go back to Korea next year! Like OMG HOW COOL IS THAT. For next year's APAO, which is going to be held in Korea :D but I'll have to work really hard to get in. There are people like Aaron Tang and Huiyao who are going to be shoe-ins, so I'll have to work hard for a place >< I really hope to meet my korean friends there or sth if I have the chance to go (:

Today I got back my results. Yes, it was 3.47, but the comments I got were: "has yet to realize his full potential." I've gotten the same comments for the past three years. Next year I'll shine. I hope :D

[random] HOLY COW JEREMY DANCED NOBODY LIKE THE WONDERGIRLS OMG xD [/random]

okay extra pictures I found...



YiZuo and DongYeun (Heather) (:



YuenHyung... and a frozen waterfall (like wtf, how did the water freeze while flowing O:)

Yep. I'm running out of random photos ):

Bye!

5:08 AM
what hurts the most

Lol okay today.

I went to suntec city to get my sis a new phone. Then somehow ended up in the AFA. (anime festival asia) Lol. So many cosplayers. I was almost laughing my head off. Seriously. People should never mix manga/anime with real life. You'll find yourself insane when brought to extremes.

And that's about it for today.

I really cannot be bothered to post much, because I'm busy re-mending my heart. That I left in Korea. ):

Seung Ju: Do you know many people in the class miss you?
Chae Yeon: We miss you all so much.. it's going to be quiet in our class again.

I really feel like crying when I read these messages. Sigh.

Oh btw, the video of me (and the imba singers) has been posted up on greg's facebook acc. I did way better for the performance, so yes, pardon my noobness >< and please, remember that it is just a recording, so the actual voices of the singers are way better than that. Which goes to prove how imba Hani and Hyun Ae are ><

CSIA x RI forever <3

Edit: Oh wait Yiheng posted up some pictures... damn hilarious



Yep, the back 5 posing for bimbo photos. SCREAM! xD




The duo which never fails to make me laugh. xD



Excuse me boys, no horseplay on the bus...

Lol. One thing's for sure - It'll be a long time before I can get over this pain. (:

CSIA is the love!

6:19 AM
what hurts the most

Ah. Last minute found some photos.



Greg, Me, Yuen Hyung (:



Greg and Ah Hyung (she was my buddy for one day, because something was wrong with the buddy list i think. Anyway, if you found her familiar, yes, she was the one JiaXing was flirting with. xD)



Ah Hyung, ChangSun, Yonghan, JiYoung. 2 things. Firstly, JiYoung looks much better in this photo as compared to the previous one i posted, where she was looking away. 2nd thing - ChangSun is not touching anything. (I hope) xD



Me and Greg, again. Eh. OOPS. Did I ever, ever forget to tell you guys that it snowed there! :D Yeah I guess we were lucky to see snow at this time of the year!



Me and Greg's buddy, Amber, doing a jump shot. (Dang I forgot to take off my jacket, like rofl)




Masks we bought from lotteworld. Believe me, one of them is me. xD We look like super awesome. Avant Garde!



ChangSun and Jeysng. Emoness does go to some extremes, no? :D

Lol okay. I hope there are more pictures and videos uploaded soon. Thanks Greg, my uhm, great, popular and vocally talented roommate :D

Bye~

8:44 AM
what hurts the most

Right. A thing I forgot to mention about CSIA yesterday.

Their school song completely owns ours. Compared to theirs, ours seems like a... chant. LOL. There is even a rock version of their school song. Can you imagine the RI school song being played rock. >< ah well. I really wish to get a track of their school song...

Well, it'll take quite some time to heal, but inside me my heart is still crying. Lol. Everytime I hear "a whole new world" again, I feel happy and sad at the same time. Happy for the memories, sad for the realization of reality. It's such a terrible realization that you'll probably never meet them again. One thing's for sure: I'll prolly never see the 9th graders again, since they're moving on to high school. So that's goodbye to people like Mike, Yeni, MaRie, JiSu... oh HELL I cannot bear to do this. Let's keep our promises guys/gals. Someday, we'll meet. At the top of the world.

Dammit. My hand's shaking whenever I start writing in my OIP journal. I really never expected myself to be so affected, but then again it's post OIP syndrome. Happens.

I really cannot let myself get affected right now. Biz@sch interview on Mon (yes, I got in, albeit soloing the whole proposal), WYSC (I haven't even touched scrabble for a month. Wth) and IYPT. Life is getting tougher.

Wesley: 'It's never goodbye, it's always later'.

That's all I can do to console myself now.

See you 8th graders at sg next summer. (:

P.S. Btw, I cannot post any pics up until greg finishes uploading them in HK. Yeah ):

2:39 AM
what hurts the most

I'm finally back from Korea after 12 days

With this lingering pain in my heart whenever I think of the 8th and 9th graders ):

Seriously, CSIA was fantastic. The guys were really fun, the girls were really sweet, and the teachers were very hospitable. The sadness of parting is inexpressible, and even though the tears won't come my heart is crying.

I don't know where to start, but I shall try to post something vaguely coherent.

CSIA, or CheongShim International Academy if you didn't know, is one of the top schools in Korea. They have a total student population of only 600 students, 100 per level (middle school and high school is combined, which is like RI - RJC combined). That means that only the brightest people gather there.

Random fact: The girls have cute uniforms. [/random fact]

Well, lifestyle wise, they are really hardcore. They study from 8am - 9.30pm, and have lights-out at 2am. Oh btw, all of them stays in the dormitory and goes back on weekends. Yeah as I was saying, their lights-out is at 2 and they have to wake up at 6. >< yeah it's quite hectic there, but they still have their fun. Somehow or rather, they can find enough time to play basketball, soccer, baseball etc. Oh yes, on the topic of sports, they do not have CCA's because they have to study so much. Rather, they have taekwondo lessons, in which everyone (even the girls) have to graduate with a blackbelt. Also, it is compulsory for all of them to be able to play at least one instrument. In other words, they are all rounders, each and every one of them.

Okay, the next paragraph is going to be about the really wonderful korean girls there.

They are seriously, seriously, SERIOUSLY talented. I was working with them on a joint song performance (yes I can sing, surprised much?) and honestly I think that they can sing better than the original singers. Quotes Sheryin: "I listen until I want to cry". Yes, that's how good they are. Even Greg (antono, the Rafflesian spotlight runner's up) is only normal compared to them. And none of them ever had any training in singing before. Which makes it all the more beautiful.

Their dance is just... wth. Someone should really upload the video of them dancing. They imitated step up 2 perfectly, and really, they are freaking hot. Sexaye! xD

Not to mention their hospitality. Lolz. Yeni (some 9th grader, yuenhyung's buddy) was damn funny. D & D & D clique, she took the last one. Dumbest xD MaRie (Bennah's buddy) was quite fun as well, and uhm, so was SeohNa, ChaeYeon, SuHee (okay dammit the list goes on). Basically, all the 9th and 8th graders (:

Not to forget, the guys! (:

They were just awesome. In sports, hospitality, everything. Harry, my 8th grade buddy, is like some pro in all kinds of sports. Lol. Soccer, basketball, table tennis etc. Then we also have Wesley, the king of bullshit. I totally miss you guys so much. Come to singapore next year!!!!!!!! YOU'LL LOVE IT (although it's a bit the warm xD)

Right, pictures! (By the way, I realize my post is very incoherent, since I'm posting at 2am)



CheongShim! :D



The road at CSIA (:



Greg Ant, my roommate :D (insert fangirl screams)



Wesley (Kyo - Jun), aka King of bullshit and Brandon Yap playing chess (lolz)



Yeni (left) and SeohNa posing. Lol. FUNNAYE :D



JiYoung (left), MaRie (center) and ChaeYeon (right). You can also vaguely see DongYeun behind MaRie's head lol. xD



Akshay and Kyojun (Again), Cosplaying lols =P



Front row (left to right): Hani (imba singer), some retard, Hyun Ae (cute and funny but still imba singer)
Back row: Davin, Sheryin, Greg.



My name in Korean... :P

Okay that's all that I can be bothered to update for now. There'll be a lot more pictures! :D

8:48 AM
what hurts the most

Mmm. Today's post may be a bit emo.

I've been thinking about this. After reading fate/stay night, I picked up an interesting quote.

"If you wish to always be able to protect your loved ones and save them from death, you are being ironic, for being able to save them means you want them to be in danger".

Paradoxical, nonetheless true. Put someone else in danger so that you are able to be a hero - that sounds bad, doesn't it?

Right. Next issue. Nothing to do with fate/stay night, but I assure you it is something truly magical in essence of storyline and complexity.

Technology is taking away all the meaning in love. That's the other thing I was pondering on. With the flick of a hand, you can see contacts worldwide, you can know what each and every one of your friends are doing. However, it is precisely because of this technological advancements which people used to believe that would make life more convenient that the human race is facing their demise.

Just look at the psychological impacts. Now that people are so transparent (as in, you can see through just about everything their doing), there is a mindset of "hey, I need to know what he/she's doing, so that I can blahblahblah. Afterall, information is power". Compare that to those days where the telephone wasn't even invented, where lovers kept on thinking about their partners, cherishing every moment together.

Not to mention how superficial relationships can be now. Whimsical attitudes are being spurred on indirectly with this convenient changes. Go out to the streets, help someone, most of them reply, "Hey, thanks, I like you." and so forth. Imo, that's really abusing language use. Ever wondered why the divorce rate is going up so high in the frequent years? Impulsive, whimsical, call it whatever, you get back to the same problem. Certain examples I can name offhand: People marrying cos of maplestory and a recent one, where people should be allowed to marry anime/manga characters. (All of them were reported in the newspaper, so yes, they aren't fiction)

Okay, after all that (random?) emoing, I shall post on better stuff.

Today I did nothing much. :D (so much better right. Lol)

And tmr... I'm going to Korea! 10th - 22nd, which means my blog will be dead unless I have internet access ><

Mmm. I don't know why, but I'm not excited. Somehow I seem more worried. Over something else, which I'm not even sure why I'm worried of. Perhaps it was the dream a month ago? Ah well.

Right, my last post before I go of to the wintry land of Korea.

Goodbye and take heart, everyone! (:

5:09 AM
what hurts the most

Gah. So tired today.

Science club outing! Was fun. :D haha there was so much stuff. But the only things I can remember now are...

1) I beat Barry at buzzer (albeit it being unfair) xD
2) I made lots of lame jokes
3) I ate a lot ):

Lol. I think if I post anymore of my lame jokes up here, people will stop coming. xD

Right, 2 days left. Better go packing!

Bye~

7:14 AM
what hurts the most

Today was quite fun I guess.

Random-ed alot today. Made tons of lame jokes, pickup lines, etc.

Played fatal/fake on Davin's com. Lol. Keeps getting own ):

Okay example of lame joke:
A rich kid forgets to bring his wallet and borrows 5 bucks from a friend. Then he never returns it. Why?
"Because 5 dollars is NOTHING TO HIM".

Lol. Aiyah. If only I spent more time thinking about physics/astro then lame jokes =/

Then dinner was at Vivo... with HH, KLL, SAL and Gillian... turned out to be more or less an IYA meeting. -laughs- HH, you suck. Keep saying want to say the stuff in korean then never say. Pfft.

Oh, did I forget to mention I learnt a hell lot of korean these 3 days xD

And yeah, I finally changed my spectacles. YESSSSSS. No more falling off :D

Right, that's about all I can random out now, bye :D

6:41 AM
what hurts the most

Today was much more (random) fun.

Lol. We actually could do the dance. Even though it looks flopsy to me xD

Nuggets from the snack stall ownz macs :D

Mm... i suppose that's about it

Lol. Bye!

7:10 AM
what hurts the most

Getting held at knife point by insane parents isn't going to get me anywhere.

Lol.

Why the fuck does this always happen to me. Trying to do business@sch = playing games? I'm stumped.

On the other hand, OIP today was random. We have to do some really weird korean dance.

Will post up the link when I get to use a proper com again.

Bye.

6:27 AM
what hurts the most

School ends with a bang.

Year head assembly was quite okay I suppose, and having the whole batch singing the batch song and releasing balloons into the air at the field was quite fun.

Headmaster's assembly was quite sad. Yeah. For the first time in 185 years, RI will have a headmistress. Lols.

Played scrabble with tee after that, beating him by only 1 pt >< 412 - 411 lol. I'm getting too noob already. Sigh. Nvr practice so long. WYSC = slaughtered.

Then played ppong. Haha. I can return smashes now! From far la. Must practice though. ><

Yep that's all I did today.

Bye!

8:04 AM
what hurts the most

Today was a completely mixed day. Random if you want to put it that way.

Mr Law picked a good movie. Mm. 10 promises I made to my dog - a Jap film. Cliched, nonetheless a good story. As usual many emotions got manipulated xD. Somehow I didn't cry. Which is quite sad. It felt like death was something I already accepted. Dammit I should stop talking to emo people -hinthint- xD

On the other hand, I shall learn to look after my dog better. She's 4 already O:

Oh and a side note, I think Mayuko Fukuda is quite cute. But then again, acting being acting, I think even my sis can do that after an anime marathon -_-". And no doubt, that retriever is quite a cute one. Although I've seen nicer =P

Okay. Then class cleanup was a total screw up, seeing that nobody was in the mood to do anything. Richard, I'm sorry about that incident, but I was controlling my urge to punch you straight in the face. Been doing it at home so much until it's habitual already lol. -sorry pillow- And apart from cleaning the whiteboard ledge, I pretty much fooled around. Then left early because I had lots of stuff to do after school...

...which I promptly forgot when I reached the first level and headed straight to the library to sleep xD. Then Bryson came and told me about how some people would not vote me for CEC next year and all that. No offence, but I think the idea of a CEC is dumb in our class. It's like ultra hard work and low pay off. One less responsibility now = more time to study. I'm having my hands full with IYPT and revision already, lol.

Then ponned hockey training because I forgot to bring my hockey stick. Yes. That's damn cool right. I left it at the door at night. Then in the morning, I picked it up, and then realized I forgot something so I ran back to my room to get it, then left without taking my hockey stick. I'm epic flail. Lol. But it was a blessing in disguise, seeing that there was no training due to rain. Hence, I went home about 3hrs early lol.

Oh and I met GC at J8. He said A levels started today o_0 BEST OF LUCK A LEVELLERS!

Right, tts all, bye!

6:18 AM
what hurts the most

Oh noes I'm addicted to DJ Max's song: oblivion. It's good. ><

Lol today nth much... went to the airport, and went to church with chew and tee. That's abt it. Hmm.

Physics! :D

Lol. I shld start on Bio soon. Or chem. Or math.

There are many things I want to say but I can't post them up to be pc. Argh.

OBLIVION WHEEEEEEEE!

Bye xD

4:37 AM
what hurts the most

Lol today was quite fun.

Went to sch at 1 for OIP rehearsal. Didn't do anything since everyone came late lol. But anyway, I played DJMax on YZ's PSP. Lol. I flail. Probably the benchmark of noobs :D I could only do a level 1 song xD

Anyway, I left at 1.30 because I went for Business@school finals. Eh ShingBo was there! So cool :D then we randomed all the way to SCGS, where the finals were held. Lol. Turns out Business@school is really quite a cool thing. The final teams were SCGS, RI, ACSI and XinMin sec. Lol. SCGS won (homeground adv? xD), well, I think they deserved to, and I predicted so anyway xD. Gratz to them! RI team did well, but not too well IMO. Haha. Tony Li laughs it off easily. xD

Oh yeah. The presentations are quite funny. Xinmin one especially. During the Q & A, when the judges asked every single question, one person will always say "uhm, please give us a few moments to consolidate our answers". Then the 7 of them will gather together in one circle like some micelle and do team-talk xD damn hilarious I tell you. Then ACSI... well, many inside jokes which I guess I shouldn't post up (: but they were really random.

Oh yeah. Astounding fact I found out. Tony Li's average mark is 88, while Barry Tng's is 90. Like, WTF MAN. 90?!!!! IMBA SHIT OMG LOL. O:

Hmm I think that's about it. Damn funny stuff, xD

Bye!

7:39 AM
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Astro
Scrabble
And the many other wonderful things in the world

Allergic`
To put it simply, life

Fears`
Eternal life
Painful death
Failure
Fear

Wishes`
Peace in the world
A life without troubles (yeah right)
To be more self motivated
To be smarter
To be taller
A better self
Luck.

Yoyoyo!

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