Saturday, February 14, 2009
I'll do one final closure post on this.
My theory spans from Darwin's theory of evolution. Darwin says "Survival of the fit enough". Since the first ecological system has been created, organisms, species all have lived by this rule, and one of the main integral rule behind the theory is that one does not do an action that does not benefit oneself knowingly. Which means, as I said, motive-action must result always in a gain (in one's knowledge). This is a basic biological rule for any species that continue to live on the face of this Earth.
However, with the modernization of society, this evident fact of survival of the fit enough has been clouded by abstract terms, pulled the hood over our eyes. We believe that this kind of thinking is primitive, this kind of thinking is uncivilized, and we who do not believe in this are modern men. However, there are so many traces of it evidently shown around the world. Politicians fire at each other. At work, people vie for the top positions. In school, people fight for the various accolades. Am I not right to say that the basic principles are still living within each of us, deep within our subconscious?
There is no denying that our modern, abstract term of "friendship" has value. It is something worth understanding, something worth caring about. But what I have experienced may have been different from you guys. I have been through so much backstabbing here and there that I have delved deeper on understanding betrayal. And hence, I have come to the conclusion that friendship is merely something that has arisen from Darwin's theory of mutualism. It is another layer of mutualism, with much more complex systems, but then it is still mutualism.
This also means I've been thinking myself as an investment by you guys. Now. Investment. How many of you people out there dare say that your parents are raising you not because you're an investment to them? How many of your parents say that when you grow up, you'll have to take care of them? We, in our subconscious minds, view everyone as investments. Likewise, others view us as investments as well.
To view the world like this was a lot of pain for me. It made me think that humans were no different from animals. All we have done was just to pull abstract terms underneath those defining layers of human society. However, it made sense. It made me understand why everyone did what they did. Whenever I am punished, I know it is because I was not a suitable investment. I did not meet up to expectations. I posed as a threat. And that was also my motivation to continue improving myself so that I was a useful enough investment.
I'll end this post with something everyone should think about.
How many lies are our society built upon?
Why do we seek the truth in our lives, but when we find out the truth, we choose to shun it away?
Is it that hard to accept the fact that life is like this and live normally?
11:16 PM
what hurts the most
