Saturday, February 14, 2009
Okay Davin. This post solely refutes your arguments, and my apologies for being insensitive. And clarifies further.
Uhm before you read all these, I would like to apologize first, before you try to see the reason in whatever I'm going to say. It never helps when you look at reasoning with a closed heart ><.
You say friends are there to carry out each other's burden. Exactly my point. That is mutualism. You have friends to alleviate your problems. At the same time, you alleviate your friend's problems. That is an exchange. The net loss in this equation is definitely on one side. The only reason why you do not see the loss is because there is firm belief that both sides are having a win-win situation, where in actual fact there can never be one. Benefits are always never equal in a long measure.
You don't have to talk to the RA people. That's where your own personality lies. That is completely irrelevant, since you are a guy who knows you can do it on your own and always try to work it out. But then, if you do not know how to solve some things, do you not ask people who are smarter than you? Isn't that a motive itself?
As I said before, you will never do something that does not have an underlying motive, be it consciously or subconsciously. Donating to charity may seem to be charitable, but your motive may be to alleviate your own guilt for not donating. That, by itself is a motive.
And further more, you sure you've never neglected your friends? Have you ever experienced yourself continually talking to one friend all of a sudden, but as time passes you talk less and less to him/her? That is because you find yourself having less and less purpose to chat with him/her, no? Isn't that another motive-action example?
You can always read up on Darwin's theory of evolution. I got almost half the basis of my idea from there. It fits perfectly.
The thing is, guys, I'm sorry if I've offended you guys by using the word "investment" - I realize it is quite extremist to objectify people, to regard people as individual units. But all I can say is, my thinking of the word investments is very different from you guys. Investments to me are things that are important, and they cannot be neglected. They have to be understood well, they have to be taken care of, they must be acknowledged as an integral part in this conglomeration of life. Investments, to me, are not just objects, but what my life is and probably will depend on in the near future. I cannot do without them.
The reason I use that word is because when I've thought through these topics in sec 2, I was really, really upset. It doesn't help when the people beside you betray you like half the time and then keep smiling at you in class (like some teachers and classmates). It just felt like sometimes when I was needed, I was called up. Otherwise I was just ignored. That was how my entire analogy came about. It gave me a more systematic way to view life, as well as accept how people thought, what they did, and calmed me down. It always helped me when I looked at the big picture. It was a clear way to view life, as compared to an abstract. Remember. People are always seeking to find the order in chaos. So why can't I find the order in my chaotic life? That is the answer I have found.
I'm really sorry to everyone who I have disappointed or upset. But this is how my life has evolved, I have strong beliefs, and I cannot be abstract. I have clearly defined a path of life that has fit perfectly into my calculations, and I have not gone wrong yet. That is where the foundation of my faith comes from. The prediction of human behaviour by observing trends.
Once again, I apologize, but this is my belief. If there's anything you want to blame it on, just blame it on my background. Helps a lot.
Oh yeah, and anon. Define success. I haven't had a single failure with this theory of mine yet. I am not establishing selfishness. As I said, it may seem selfish, but in actual fact it is just however you live your lives, just laid out, stripped bare, with all the abstracts removed and the main infrastructure remaining. And yeah, my apologies to you too.
(Oh and Davin. Some other guy in class thinks almost the same way as me. Would you oust him too?)
Okay anyway, I think I've posted enough of this topic. Now onto today.
THE PIANO AT RGS SUCKS. THE F SHARP KEY TWO OCTAVES FROM THE BOTTOM IS STUCK. -_-" the sound is damn weird, lol.
IYA meeting was draggy. We were late, and it dragged on. I guess my slides weren't prepared that well after all. Hmm.
Okay I think I should really skip whatever happened at vivo. It's... just weird. Lol.
Hmm apart from that,
Happy valentine's day.
6:28 AM
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